Study with an end in mind. I am doing this paper now, what is it that I want to achieve?
Full marks ? A1 ? A2 ? Or just a pass ? With an end in mind, a goal, you will get there or near there.
My study methods are not working. And I got the same freaking sucky results for Chemistry prelim. The more I thought of it, the more I have to fight the tears from falling. And I want to know, why? Why am I getting this sucky result yet again? Why am I back to square one?
Afterall, I focused my time on Chemistry and I can say I really studied hard this time round.
So I felt really terrible. I seems to lose sight of where I'm going next. How should I move on. And whenever I touched my books and start studying, in the back of my mind, it will be the digits I got for Chemistry. I lost the momentum. Lost the drive to move forward. So these two days, I no longer study as hard. And as a mean of escaping, I wasted my time taking nap that lasted for hours.
But, after I woke up from my sleep just now and read Amelia's sms about what MrGad advised, I realised something. Why am I doing this to myself? How can I treat myself like that?
Because if you ask me, it's a miracle I can sit down and study for hours non-stop and there are days when I studied for the whole day. I used to can't stand studying just two hours. I can barely reach two hours. But for this prelim, I actually got into the habit of studying in the library for the whole day until the library closes, for almost everyday. When I start studying, the feeling I got was great, so I continued studying, even when I'm really saturated and exhausted, I told myself, it'll be worth it and I pushed myself further. I started forcing myself to take in the information faster and getting more done in the day. Till the point where I didn't stop to think. Am I really absorbing the information? Or is it just on the surface?
That's where things went wrong.
I am forcing myself to study. I am studying for the sake of studying hard. Because studying super hard made me feel good about myself. But, it's not effective!
It is not because I didn't work hard enough, it's because I didn't work smart enough.
And I don't deserve all those torturing I gave myself. When I said, I did my best, how can I still treat myself so badly?
All I need to do is to change my ways. Because now I have faith in myself that I have enough discipline to sit down and study. One problem settled, isn't it great?
When studying, don't have a mindset of chionging. Because the opposite work better.
