ECP

Went east coast park with Sasha Cheong today. It's the first time the two of us go out together. And it's so much better than what I expect. For the whole day, I was significantly more positive and chirpy. We had so many LOL moments and also many heart-to-heart talks. Had so much positive energy today even though I was sleep deprived. This friendship is definitely one that will last long. 

Sasha and YL.

P.S. There are many more photos in my cam but can't upload all if not she'll definitely kill me...

GOODNIGHT GUYS!

Whats next

YO!
Just finished watching one kdrama! The storyline's interesting to me at the beginning. But when the drama nears the end, it became kind of normal-ish. Of course, I still managed to finish the entire show because there's only 16epi and cause....

Yoon shi yoon's tooooooo cute!!

Tried the Call me maybe squats for the first time today and my legs HURTS. Even though it's less than 5 mins long and it looks easy! Gonna strive to do them everyday. I CAN DO THIS.

So what's next? On to my next kdrama, THE HEIRS!
OK, just kidding! Have been coped up in my house for the entire week. I have enough of the me-time.

Next week's gonna be an eventful week. East coast park with Sasha on Monday, ice skating with clique on Tuesday, river safari with Tingwei on Wednesday and CHINA WITH SHIMIN ON FRIDAY!
Will be gone for 10days! And I'm getting more and more excited for it!
Time to greet the world.


But for now, time for bed....

Bye guys!

Damn touching. I was crying buckets.

No matter what, your family is still the best. Your family will care for you the most, love you the most.

Have been wanting to blog for long but was really really REALLY lazy. Even though I'm super free now HAHA. So these few days are spent rotting at home, which I really enjoyed a lot! Who don't love having so much freedom? Haven't been visitng the gym too so it's been quite long since I last exercised ohh mann! :(

OH and I was sick two days ago! Really horrible feeling. My head, body and throat hurts! But after visiting the doctor and having medicine, immediately I'm on the road to recovery hahaha. The medicine is too effective. And I'm addicted to bubzbeauty you guys should go and read her blog or watch her youtube videos whatsoever. I'm loving her more and more everyday. I think soon I'll finish watching all her videos! Opps. But her dogs are TOO cute! And she's really inspiring. Just love her lah. I can spend the whole day just watching her videos. But last week was quite eventful though.

Did I mention that I dyed my hair? Wanted to post pictures but it's too troublesome. I dyed my hair, two colours. Went clubbing at mink. Woots! First time for me. I know I'm super slow. But still proud to say, FIRST TIME. The place's really small though. Don't really like mink. But I definitely enjoyed myself going crazy and dancing to the music.  Then prom the next night. Prom's super boring. But after prom went karaoke with friends which was sooooo much more fun. We all went crazy. First time singing infront of friends too, FIRST TIME. I always karaoke with jiaxin and jiaxin only. Cause my singing sucks but they were a bunch of awesome ppl who's too nice and really didn't care.

So after the karaoke my life's back to same old. Slacked at home till today. And I believe will be the same for tomorrow, the day after, the day day after....till CHINA 2013! Applied for visa with my dad today. Hoping that everything will go smoothly and I will come back as one piece. To be honest, I'm really scared to death. What's going to happen to me when I'm there? What if something really happened to me what's my family gonna do? I'MSOSCARED. But, I really want to go too.

My dad's really worried. So I'm giving him two options. It's either we go with the original plan OR he go with me to macau and I will come back with him after macau only. Which means no fujian for me. Right now, what's left is my dad's decision. Scared but excited, you know that feeling? Wanting to take the plunge yet worrying about the possible consequences. Anyway, for now, I don't know what's going to happen to me as well. So let's all wish for the best ba! And all the best to poly peeps taking exams now! Freedom will soon come to you! Hang in there!

No longer have to conquer 'A' levels, but time to conquer life. Of course, I'm exhilarated over the end of the month- long exam. But I thought I'll be happier. The first exam-free morning which I woke up to, was tiring. Now that I don't have to worry about the exams, I thought I'll feel light-hearted. Instead, I find myself worrying over even more stuffs, which are so realistic and unavoidable. When I'm having exams, all I have to think about is to do well for it. Everything else can be put aside for the time being. Without exams, problems start to surface and there's no hiding from it. As some of you already knows, I'm going China with shimin soon. Just this issue alone caused so many headaches. I kept thinking and worrying, becoming more and more stressed out. Even when jiaxin met me, the first thing she asked was, why you look so sad? However, after spending the whole day with her, her joy and happiness did rub off on me. Indeed, 'A' level is REALLY over. It took awhile before my brain managed to acknowledge this fact. Went for lunch and Thor with my classmates immediately after the last paper! And the next day I spent the whole day at jiaxin's hair salon. Did my hair!!! I looked very different now I swear! Going to the movies later with my mum, shopping with jiaxin and rock climbing with jiaxin, bro and bro's gf tmrw! Next week there'll be two parties as well!! Gosh, I'm EXCITED. Woohoo~ 'A' level is REALLY over! Even though I was lamenting over how unhappy I was after exams end, I guess problems still have to be faced. Afterall, this is life. Exams are also part and parcel of life. I'm just glad that I managed to overcome one huge hurdle in my life.

Update

Everything's so much better now. School today's so much beter than yesterday, Judo today is so much better than last week. Maybe I really can survive this year. Maybe things are really not as bad as I thought. Last night meet up with Amelia really helped a lot. Just when I was at my lowest, at the right moment, Amelia showed up. I'm really grateful for that. :D This is what I call a true friend. I guess it's true. It is not because other people don't want to approach you. It is because you are so involved in your own thoughts that at the same time, your body is unconsciously telling people to stay away from you. There are actually many people out there waiting to be your friend. Today, I am myself. And I am happy. So Let go of all your insecurities and worries. Just let go, And everything will be fine. :D P.S. Having a good night sleep helps a lot too. HEHE :D

School the hell

JIAYOU JIAYOU! Brace myself for what's to come! And SURVIVE THIS 4 MONTHS. 116 Days to be exact. For I have nothing to lose. I CAN DO THIS.

School's reopening soon...it's scaring me...

现在的心情真的好差。害怕，担忧，怀疑。。。真糟糕。把自己弄得好累哦。该想的时候脑袋一片空白，不该想的时候，又一大堆想法。

Many friends tell me that I'm a weird person, doing weird things. I guess they're right. I'm so weird. Can't understand myself too. 


Feels like going away for a long long time. I want to go overseas!! Thinking of this always make me feel excited! Pleaseeeee, 4months, please pass fast fast! Pleaseeeeee. And not let it be as torturous as before. Pleaseeeeee.

Really miss knowing that there's someone out there who really cares. 

So frustrated with everything, including myself.

fighting spirit

Judo mates

Judo mates. They're a bunch of awesome people. Even though I didn't talk much, I think.

Joining judo is the best decision I've made so far.  Still can remember the first judo scene vividly.

13/12/2011.

Can't remember what happened, but I paid for the course before even getting to know about it first. Haha! I think that's the deciding factor. I walked into a room full of strangers and not forgetting a room of GUYS. They were throwing each other around. That's when I start to reconsider my decision.
But as you know, it's too late for any regrets. HAHA.
I got really nervous when I stepped into the room. It felt really foreign to me. And at that moment I was thinking to myself, "You must be mad, Yilian. You must be mad" But anyway, I'm glad SiokBin sensei was there. You can't believe how glad I was when I finally see a female. And she seems friendly and trustable to a frightened small me. So YEAH. I'm in.
From then on, step by step, I start to break new barriers. I became a different me.
From the martial art itself, to meeting new people.
So that's why people say we should always learn new things!
It's when learning new things, stepping out of our comfort zone and putting ourselves into a totally foreign place that we really grow as a human being.

I've been learning judo for 1 year and 6 months already.
Just like how I've been learning piano for 6 years, violin for 5 years. Time really flies!

So today, I had my grading for blue belt. It was totally a nerve-racking experience. I think I passed? Haha! YAY It's all thanks to all my judo mates. If not for them, I would have failed it! Just before grading, Kianyu was still teaching me the 6 escaping techniques. We reached only the 4th technique when SiokBin sensei called me. So yeah, have to start my grading. When sensei ask me to show her the 6technique, I stopped at the 4th one and was looking around desperately for help. Lucky for me, they helped me alittle...haha! Shiai part, one word from me, WOW.

Never so tired before as compared to previous trainings. Randori is always the scary part for me. Like fighting with people and applying what I learnt at the right time. So I'm always hesitant during randori. But during this grading, sensei Siokbin said two things in particular to me.
"If you continue to laugh, you will fail this grading immediately."
She said it so sternly that immediately I got serious.
"Continue to attack! Show more fighting spirit!"
Because of that, I stop hesitating and just fight.

SO YEAH. See the power of my sensei uh? Haha!

Judo, so far the best decision of my life.

Used to

Now you are just somebody I used to know.

back to books

Today woke up early, around 9plus sio~ (early for me!) Had a cup of milk, two cheese and did some stretching (to aid growth! hahahaha). Then, BACK TO BOOKS! Finally....like after many many days.
Camped in the library for hours and did electrochem and some maths. It's quite a torture for me, since I didn't touch books for so long. Got tired very easily and had to take numerous breaks.

What's worst? A crazy person was sitting in front of me in the library. Really unlucky day for me urgh.
At first this person seems normal to me, concentrating on his math assignment.
But slowly, he became weirder: Writing furiously. Flipping his papers urgently. Pressing his calculator fiercely. THINKING OBVIOUSLY(like everyone can tell he's thinking that kind). I'm fine with all these okay. Like just go ahead lah, it's good that he's so 'engrossed' in his work. But awhile later, he started giggling to himself. Like he'll look at his phone and start giggling. I'M FINE WITH THIS OKAY.
But the moment I took out my math book, he glanced at it for a moment, and started giggling nonstop.
He even tried to stop himself from giggling 'secretly'. Gosh. It's so obvious man. You know why he's like this? At first it didn't make sense to me. But slowly I kind of get it. He's acting like this, because my math's H1.

Like, he's doing H2 math.

He just stared at my math book and start giggling non-stop.
And all his actions became even more exaggerated. He'll press his calculator even more fiercely, acting like he's thinking even more deeply. That's it man. By now I'm already so affected by his actions and everything.
Awhile later, I just pack up and leave. Really my luck to bump into such person. He's just plain arrogant and rude.

OK, forget it. Let's move on to a happier note.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TIO JIA XIN!!
Met her awhile later after the study session at her mum's salon. My heart goes out to jiaxin and her mum, really. They're so exhausted these few days in the salon. Especially her mum.
赚钱真的不容易啊。
Opening own business, is really not easy.

But it's okay. They are doing what they want to do. They are following their dream.
I feel so lazy and useless as compared to them lor. But they make me reflect on myself. What is it that I want from my life? What have I been doing all these while? I'm always living in comfort. Almost everything's given to me easily. Right now, it's one and only. And that's to focus, and do well for A levels.

Tomorrow is a new day. Going to rest well and work hard again tomorrow!
OK bye! My fan just break down on me and the heat's killing me slowly.


I miss my old sport.

The five rabbits

 

 

Had late dinner at The Five Rabbits Bistro & Bar with mum and dad last night. We ordered BBQ chicken pizza and salmon. The food was good, especially their pizza! They were having promotion 1 to 1 main course. Which means that if we order one main course, we can get another one for free. Super full when we leave! Haha! The place's nice and comfortable too. Can just stay there and chill hehe.
Oh! And when we were leaving, even though the place's called The Five Rabbits, I'm really surprised to see real rabbit over there! Haha! Damn cuteeeee. A lady was stroking the rabbit, and the rabbit just closes its eyes and sit there comfortably.

After our dinner, we head back to the Pasir Ris house to stay for the night. And it wasn't a peaceful night......sigh......Only had a few hours of sleep. The house's really scary I tell you :O Never am I going back there again.............