Heyo!
Ate this new -to- me sambal fish from japanese stall during recess today.Delicious! Very spicy I like! Yesterday night ate chili crab too! wah damn niceXD
Biology lesson: Human heart is a muscle. So why does human kept on saying 'heart pain ah! heartbroken!' When the heart is just a muscle. I can't get this so I went up to teacher. It is all psychology. It came from the brain and your mind control how you feel. So sayings like 'I love you with all my heart' , is fake. Feelings are controlled by the brain.

Everybody has different sayings. But for me, I believe in biology terms. And it is so interesting to me!

Welcome February 2011!

yilian(:

treasure

hello just wanna say i love my new phone because i can go onlime with it at home. it means i can eliminate switching on the com. i can concentrate on my studies too. blogging will be done by phone!:Dthe only one thing is, i'm not used to touchscreen so i will take longer time.xp finally i consider myself finished all the homework. now i can sleep well!:Dloves~
yilian

김범수 - 나타나 (SBS DRAMA, SECRET GARDEN OST)

Secret Garden is awesome too!

He is so handsome I love looking at his face!:D

HELLO!

Exchange cum concert by yuying, nothing to say, just plain AWESOME!

What I mean is yuying's music. Rocked the whole school hall!:D

That is the standard. That is what band music is for.

My whole morning spent in band scene!:D 10school band, each played twice.

To me, yuying is the best! There's no need to fight.

Huayi is good too, even though they deproved when they are up stage, they managed to move me.

Somehow, I am disappointed. None of the band gave me that feeling. The feeling that made me join band. That feeling of touched and moved.

But yuying and huayi surprised me! Yuying is still the best.

I looked out of the window on the way back, my mind repeating that moment and my heart not letting go. Damn, it's too nice.

It's unbearable how I felt, as they are too awesome and I wonder.

The desperation that I felt.

I was listening to band music on the bus, I fall asleep, but my mind is still thinking.

And then, we took MrTan's car back:DWent to SWS first.

I'm idolising mrtan more and more. LOL. He's too good.

Hmm..he is educated and well-off yet very human. Putting others before self.

I had a wonderful morning and band-music lover rocked on~

AND I GOT A NEW PHONE TOUCHSCREEN. HAHA!

Even though sad, I guess I will abandon my old phone which undergo wear and tear.

You did a great job though.

Gonna love my Dad!:D

yilian(:

Ji Mo Ji Mo Jiu Hao

I really can't find any song that can describe my feelings now. Damn.

Hey(:

Ups and downs, high and low, positive and negative.

A mixture of both is normal in the long term. Therefore I will just get through it.(:

I look at something, my perspective for the same thing will be different in some weird days.

It will be good soon(:

And I am heartless. I'm letting go.

Dear yilian, please study hard. You can have time for yourself and watch the freaking addictive drama. But you must finish up what you started. Finish up what is important. Please bear that in mind.

-yilian(:

Oh and weekend is here and CNY is coming! I cannnnnnn't wait!:D

yilian's update for the day!(:

I love today's flow. How nice.

It's awesome when you experience moments where you end up being early for appointment,

and then you got the chance to take a stroll in a nearby bookstore. When you went in, you will go wow so many beautiful books you know you never can finish all.

And you got a praise from the nurse for being early. And you happen to be so early you caught up with the earlier shuttle bus.

All the way, being indulged in a book.

Books are awesome.

The way you are.

yilian(:

EDIT: Today's my brother's first day at AJC(:And I saw Wendy in AJC's uniform, cool! Next year will be my turn, in my dream school's uniform^^

L.O.V.E I LOVE YOU AND YOU LOVE ME!:D

My goal is far I know. It is unrealistic I know.

But, I want to give it a shot. I don't want to give up even before trying.

That is the place I want to be.

I will be realistic but I will still hold on to my dream.

yilian(:

Work hard, stay positive, and get up early. It's the best part of the day.~ George Allen, Sr

Hey!:D

Schooled, dry run, band!(:

Chatted with LILI during classes, wonderful!

So nice chatting with her.

EVERYBODY STAY STRONG. This is not everything, life goes on.

I have to find back my positive self!

STAY STRONG.

Stay focused on my goals. Never never never lose sight of them. *focus*

Frustration, although quite painful at times, is a very positive and essential part of success.

- Bo Bennett

P.S Hey I miss you leh. HAHA. 有缘再相聚。

hello!:D

After we succeeded taking marching video, I should have eaten!:(

Went home, slept till this morning 6am and I AM DAMN HUNGRY..

The look of food was a luxury. I should have ate!

And I ate whatever food that came my way and went back to sleep.

I am yilian, the superficial me. I crave for success.

Different from how I look, different from how you thought.

人質

Update for the day.

I walked to and fro in the house, clueless of what to do.

Fatigue is getting to me every second and homework is getting to me every minute.

After talking a catnap, I still can sense fatigue. Now, I'm in nowhere.

I cannot sleep, I cannot do homework. To make things worst, dinner is calling out to me.

Eat me up or mummy will come after you.

My solution is to use computer and await the moment where my heart and my mind is in sync.

Marching I love, marching I fear. We will do well tomorrow.

We put in so much effort, it's time to be appreciated.

While marching, I was distracted.

I left my phone at the canteen table, bare and wide, as if calling for thief.

My heart skipped a beat, what ifs.

I quickened my pace to check things out. Phew.

It's still there(:

Awesome people who put a smile on my face. Lovely people(:

My love for it is growing stronger as the minutes went by. I cannot bear to put it down now.

I am getting out of hand. As if I care. But, I do care. I do want to care. But the more I go against something, the more I cannot stop.

I am happy today. Because I am doing something I love.

在我心上用力的开一枪

让一切归零在这声巨响

-yilian

Hello!:D

Jiaxin listn to me complain and I felt soooo much better!(:

I understood now. Taking everything into you is not good.

Because this kind of ppl, will burst one day. The day where you really cannot take it.

I will let ppl hear me. Whatever shit, just say out. Out LOUD.

When you heard too much. Seen too much.

Yesterday is such a day.

I'm recovering I hope.

You are on your own. Survive on your own. Don't rely on everyone or anyone.

Don't trust. Doubt them, question them and take a good long look at their heart.

And then give your attention to those who deserve it.

Not going to let it lying down. Being nice is stupid. I am stupid for too long.

The world is realistic after all.

And think twice if you think you know me well. Because you don't.

-yilian(:

Really don't want to say anymore.

My mind feels like bursting, I'm frustrated. I felt breathless.

I don't want to generalize, but everything is so sucky. Almost everything.

Sucks to the max!

Yes I can take it. Everything, I just take it in. It happened so damn lots of time. I justkeep quiet.

BUT JUSTNOW?!

I guess everyone has their limits. I really feel like bashing them.

I'm glad I have my brother to lend me listening ears.

I'M FEELING SO MISERABLE NOW. :(

enough of my ranting. LIFE GOES ON DOESN'T IT.

No one promised life will be easy, no one promised THE WORLD IS GREAT.

please, reach out to me. I need you. I have been following my mind for too long. For once, I really, really want to give in to my heart.

not long post.

Resumed my yoga lessons. I LOVE IT!

It's the time when I let my hair down and relax after a long day.

I am a child with an old granny body. I REALLY NEED IT.

My body was so stiff and not flexible!

Anyway, extremely tiring day for me. Hmk tomorrow, sleep today and NOW.

To be, or not to be - that is the question ...

-yilian

goodnight(:

P.S I am determined to improve my english and all my subjects.

Saturday

LIBRARY STUDY

• 3.30pm to 9pm

KBOX

• 10pm to 3am

Went to library to study with Amelia!:DStudied for 5hr30mins!Biology. We were chased out by the librarian. And on my way home I bumped into my Mother! Then followed her to kbox for her friend's birthday. Singing is just not for me. My singing sucks._. But still, I like!

If I had the money!

HAD THE WHOLE ROOM TO MY SELF FOR LAST HR!HAPPY MUCH!^^

And I took a sip of beer before I left. And I rush back to finish a whole cup. I don't know what got into me. A foreign stuff into my body. I felt like vomiting. But was fine later on.

A nice SaturdayXD

Friday

ICT test, fail for sure. Test our computer knowledge, I don't know how to do.

I studied yesterday. The after effect is still there as I feel superb!

Band: Sectional then marching.

I love today's sectional. It's productive. All credit to Michelle:D

It's only when I realise things can be better if I am better.

I wish I am better. I want to be better.

How much I wish.

You don't even know
what a dream is;
how did it come?"
"It didn't come,
it was there."

12TH Jan

• after sch sl meeting. disappointed.
• stayed back to study with bee ashiqin and amirah till sch close. LOL.
• had an early night. :D

I am getting restless in classes these few days.

When is this class gonna end??WHAT TIME??

Zoom! Like that sure cmi!

Teachers ah teachers, you are giving me headache you know?

Got briefing from cher and I REALLY have slight headache.

And today came the test. omg!

The books all came falling on me and my head hurts.

Study!

no longer a question but an answer.

I just studied, but I just fall asleep. I will nod off, I did nod off yesterday and tday.

And sleeping became my love.

yilian

I love today's sectional. Some members really improved a lot. I'm glad.

Please know that your efforts will not go to waste and will be recognised.

They are improving. I am not.

I will give my best and spend much more time with my instrument now.

Dear lips, please stay awesome and keep improving. I will be nice to you. Thank you.

yilian:D

malaysia

Went in dad's car and I have to squeeze at the back seat with 4people. OMG I had a bad time!

FINALLY reached. We went for lunch, computer lan for 1hour and back home to rest and to dress up.

Had a short nap and we went over for the birthday party with 5PEOPLE at the back seat.

LOL! I kept shaking my head, "no no cannot sit already" But she said "can one lah, I so skinny"

Unbelievable, she just make her way and SQUEEZED IN. LOL! And yes, we managed to make it there.

I don't like this year's party. Too rushed.

MY AHGONG 97YEARS OLD!

Then we went to a shopping mall to shop. And I went to play at the arcade. I LOVE THAT ARCADE!:D

Played with my mum while the rest went shopping. My brother joined in and we won the basketball game!:D

Then we went to join the rest at macdonald. I thought they left alr since it's late. They are very on!

And we went back together when the shopping mall close. Slept in all the way till this afternoon, we wake up to go back to singapore.

I LOVE GATHERINGS WITH RELATIVES. The atmosphere is so lively and there's so many people! Looking forward to chinese new year!:D

I can say this trip came at the right time.

CCA exhibition today!:D

We performed for the secones. Tomorrow I will be going off to Malaysia!Will be back in a day!:D

It's so fake. So damn fake.

Faking a smile is not as tired as I thought. But it proved me wrong today. It not only absorb all my energy, it hurts. A lot.

If only I could say out. I want to do it too. But I just can't. I JUST CAN'T.

It just sucks.

HOW STRONG IS MY DREAM. HOW STRONG IS IT YOU TELL ME.

Today is fine!finefineday!(:

Ilike. It's just like one of everydays.

Lessons after lessons. Talk after talk. I wonder how many times I heard ['o'level] this word.

Fear not, because it will end soon. Soon!

Fall asleep during math. I wonder why I'm so tired. But I DIDNT SLEEP DURING SS.

Amazingly. I think it's because we were talking about our future after 'o'.

We changed teachers! But as long as form teacher nvr change I HAPPY!:D

English I got an awesome teacher!

Chinese uh nono.

2nd day as a graduating student. I looked long and hard at the secthrees. I felt the difference.

Because we are graduating and now all eyes on the mighty 'o', other things seem to be put second. The feeling is weird.

Andand, I LOVE HOW MR CHNG CALLED '4I 4I'.

Still not used to it, but I like how it sounds.(:

I noticed a few of the secfours have changed. I noticed how they are starting to work hard.

And it's scary. I believe that as long as they set their mind to, they will make it.

It's soooooooo C.O.M.P.E.T.I.T.I.V.E.

cca exhibition this friday(:

back to malaysia this saturday for my ahgong birthday(:

hopefully

can get new trombones before chinese new year

can go for section outing before chinese new year

can finish up revision for secthree stuffs before chinese new year

*pray*

and, jiaxin to get well soon. (:

with heart, yilian.

EDIT:

I miss working with those awesome peeps.

I really do. I miss them. From my heart.

I am starting to lose myself.

Humans mind is so scary. They can build you, they can kill you as well.

I am so going to sleep now. Only with clear mind can I think properly.

I am, getting out of control.

Out of control of my emotions, out of control of myself and what I want.

Today is bad. Really bad.

But, I will move on.

I don't have time to be bitter. I only have time to be better.

I have chose the easier way out for too long. I have chose to escape for too long.

I am really sorry I am not good enough. I am not good to start with. But I will be good to end with. Because I want to.

Time to go stronger.

A level head comes from a strong heart.

with hope, yi lian.

EDIT: I read Michelle's blog.

"I believe in my section :)"

Yeah Michelle! I am touched! I so agree with what you mentioned!:D

說了再見

FIRST official work ENDED.

13DEC2010, 16DEC2010 TO 2JAN2011

free day: 24DEC2010

TOTAL PAY: $610

RATING: VERY GOOD.

Move on and never look back.

/yilianI AM LEARNING TO BE A STUDENT AGAIN..

'o' level will be over soon. 'o' level will be over soon. 'o' level will be over soon.

keep faith and keep chanting. I.can't.wait.therefore.you.must.wait.for.me.pls.

Tomorrow is my last day at work. Farewells that are hard to say...

Today kena scolded badly and loudly because I did something wrong.

I GOT MY PAY 500BUCKS TODAY.

First day of 2011, I hope everyone have new mindset, new hopes.

Thts all and take care(:

Stay happy for the next 364days..

my 2010...D:D

First with Jan of course.

Jan: I thought nothing much when I thought back. But to think it was actually me being sec three and with new classmates. Therefore nothing memorable, because it wasn't that happily- ever-after senario.

Urgh. The year actually went past like that. Jan, Feb, March...I really don't know what to say.

End with Dec of course.

Dec: BAND, AND WORK. I learnt a lot from working. Two more days and it will be my last day there. I learnt how to pack food, cut lunchern meat, wash beansprout etc. And my mental calculation definitely improved, I grew more muscular. MUAHAHA. Most impt, I got tHE EXPERIENCE I CAN NOW TELL OTHERS!

Next year will be focus on TWO THINGS: BAND SYF . MY 'O' LEVEL.

I have a feeling it will past even FASTER than 2010. But I just have to treasure every DAY.

AND THEN I CANT WAIT FOR AFTER 'O' NOW.

Last 13mins of 2010...

My dream is to go back to Malaysia after my 'O' and stay there. HAHA. Fear not, because this is just [dream1] . I HAVE SO MANY MANY DREAMS YET TO COME.

I Still have [dream2][dream3]etc. The number goes on.

After I start working, I seems to start drifting away from other things. Now even though a new year is coming, I will also choose to live by peacefully. At my working place, everything is realistic. You just go by as it should be.

Unlike at the beginning of 2010, I will go high myself, think big, send lots lots well wishes, go around the house and be the only one being high about the new year etc.

HEHE, I'm loving the peaceful now. At least I am peaceful and everything's in place.

Last 7mins of 2010...

I LOVE 2010. It is full of ups and downs, happy and sad. If I say I really go into details for the whole year, the list will go on... There are times where I am unhappy with my new classmates, times where I feel the urge to give up, times where everything just go wrong, times where there are tears. However, there are times of laugher, the time where I joined my current clique, times where I grew up and learn, times where I grew closer to my friends, times where I am praised, times where I did well. TIMES WHERE THINGS WERE TO THE EXTREME. HAPPY TO THE EXTREME, SAD TO THE EXTREME.

Last 2mins of 2010...

I LOVE my friends. Namely JiaXin, Amelia, Sheryl, Wadariah, Tingwei, Michelle, Shimin, and many more friends. I LOVE my family. Namely My DAD, My MUM, My BROTHER, My COUSIN, and many more aunts and uncles.

Last 1min of 2010...

And, Now, 12AM OF 2011.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE, HAPPY 2011 READERS! A SENSATIONAL MOMENT! First second of the year! First minute of the year! AND I AM HERE BLOGGING.

I LOVE myself. Namely, Low Yi Lian.

2011, welcome to my life. Because of that, I will love you. From now on, for the next 365days, 2011 will be written for more than 365times on my exam papers practice papers etc.

On 2011, the FIRST person I saw is MY DAD . The FIRST person to msg me is WADARIAH. The FIRST sound I heard is the television noise OR the sound of my phone ringing. The FIRST feeling I got is excited and sensational.

A new year, a brighter future, a better everyday, A MORE DILLIGENT YILIAN.

It's as though almost everyone felt that 2010 fly past. Same to me. BUT, 2011 IS GOING TO BE BETTER. MORE MEANINGFUL, AND FUN~

I sent 2011's well wishes to 31 selected people!:D

I won't make any new year resolutions. I will make my goals.

I love you.

This is yilian, speaking to you.