It's always like this. I think. The pattern is there.
I will get so down once in a while, so freaking down and then, the days after it will be fun.
Maybe it's the difference. Today we went to huayi for exchange, so nice playing together!:D
Huayi ppl are nice(: And after the exchange I went for AJC 's concert together with michelle howjin and yanjia. I was running late. Didn't has the chance to have a proper dinner. Nice performance!:D Only thing is it's short. We left after talking to cheehan!(:
The concert marks the end of my march holiday! Everyday band-related stuffs! I like! :D
I love the feeling when I'm in a concert, especially in the night!
It gave me the emotions to think and reflect. During the concert, I was thinking of my story.
How amazing is everything. I am a girl who knows nothing about band. I didn't even know it's existence before secondary school life. Basically my primary school has no band which suckssss.
Then I come to mayflower sec. Band is still something foreign.
For example is an example I don't even know exist now.
And it is not in my cca list. My choice was actually chinese dance my primary school cca -.-
So, I forgot what happened but jiaxin and I were hesitating oh wait, it's only me.
We were outside the HOD room. And then band occured to me. How about band?
Hahas it's just me browsing all the cca and thinking.
And THEN, THE FEELING OF THE BAND CAME. Oh I mean the feeling band, mayflower, left me. The then members playing for us.
I stood in the music room with all those amazing mirrors and the chilly air -con and they played a song which touched me. And we left the music room, I looked back and wanted to stay there longer. That's it. That's the feeling. That's also the reason I think we are playing music for.
To touch the audience.
And because of that, I joined. Everything comes down to that. Even though there is another factor which, I heard the rumors that band is TOUGH. Hahas I 'm curious HOW TOUGH.
And I went against all those ppls and joined. No harm after all.
Then an anti-social girl, who likes to stay at one corner, went for the audition. And I am in.
Still a few- word girl, I'm selected as the secretary. I AM shocked. This was my then thought:
omg my first post in my life!
And I went around boasting to my family how awesome and fortunate it is.
And I followed all the rules and did my job. I strive for the best. And I mean it.
SYF 2009. Like I said, I followed all the rules. So I didn't have much memories left.
Slowly I was learning to open up....
And then I was selected as the band major. I still remember vivdly how it went.
Jollibbee and me were called out to find ms mok . We were wondering what happened. Really wondering and guessing. We were thinking why call a secretary and a QM?
And we were dumbfounded. It was at the bench outside the hall.
Ms mok started by passing us sheets of paper. I still don't know what it was.
I read. It wrote there as camp. Omg I thought. I don't like camp. Being the anti-social girl,
camp to me means socialising and meeting new people.
Then I asked her what it was, she explained. I still didn't get it. And then a much straightfoward answer, everything came to light. We were shaking. But we kept quiet and listened to her intently. When we walked back into the music room, I felt as if the whole world was on my shoulder. How heavy. Because, ms mok don't allow us to tell ANYBODY except for family. Imagine I have to keep it inside me something so freaking damn shocking I thought I was dreaming. And then I rushed home after that, I broke the news to my family.
Now, I am a band major who is stepping down in 20days time. I am not a good major.
But I benefitted so much from it it seems impossible to a 4years-ago-yilian.
And I spent almost everyday to band-related stuffs. My contact to music widened so much.
Now I still can't really identify the instruments and whatsnot when listening to band music.
But few days ago I really listened. I tried. Using my ear. And I heard something new. I heard into the music and not just overall. Instruments overlapping each other etc. The experience left me easily exhausted. But it's so fun and I likey!
So back to today, listening to the concert. Everything appeared amazing. I looked at the band in front of me and the beauty of it.
And I thought, nobody knows the future. Everything and anything may happen and by that time I shall think back at how amazing it is.
After I stepped down from mayflower band, I am going to continue my band life. I want to.
But what if something foreign happened again.
I will still face all endeavours with open heart. Because that is me.
What I'm meant to be. And what I'm meant to experience.
I'm hungry:(
Okay! Back to the present!
11.11 I hope that mayflower band will get silver for SYF 2011.
And also I must be back to my homework! Chiong all the homework during the weekend.
They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel.Goodbye!
yilian:D
