Now, I am. More of physically. WORKING IS TIRING!
But, it is FUN!:D
Anyway, huayi in the morning!:D Sheryl and me are damn early!:D
But, I have to leave so early too!D: And the worst happened!
Mr Tan did not arrive at 9am and my practice with them was short and even short.
I dragged and in the end have to take the EXPENSIVE cab!==
Dental appointment!:DI put on the Christmas colours for my braces! GREEN AND RED!
THEN WORKKKKKKK.
Luckily I have my kind dad!:D Therefore took his car!
I am STILL late. And work makes me cannot sleep:(
I have to 'open' my eyes. At first has no customer. Totally quiet.
Warm weather makes me sleepy.
Then, zooom!
They came flooding in~~Business good!
Not a happy day. I kena scolded for almost dozens time. TT
I kept on doing wrong things and I am slow.
BUT, I LOVE THE PEOPLE THERE!:D My 'neighbours'!:D
They treat me food!:D
And, they are fun and nice people!:D They managed to cheer me up!:D
Now then I had my dinner. And working is wearing me out.
It is frustrating. Working there seems to have magnified x100 most of my flaws.
I was pushed to my limits. That's why I love working!:D
I really must sleep early as said by my aunt.
If not you won't see happy yilian tomorrow!
:D
side note: what I learnt today: huayi's band major is fierce.
i like how she has the confidence. 'you hate me your business'
sometimes I don't understand too. 'yilian is not fierce enough.'
I don't understand myself.
Because I am afraid people will hate me or I have no confidence myself.
But even if I am not fierce, there are some who will still hate me.
So what is the point of being the way I am now?
When the more I stay like that , 'bo chap' attitude, the more everything will go down the drain.
I really hate how things turned out. And I am being real dumb. I think so very much!==
When things don't turn out nice, because I am used to it, I will angry myself. In other words, beating myself up. AND THAT IS REALLY DUMB. And it is not like things will be solved if I did this.So, it is useless. Waste my energy too! I did nothing wrong so why am I angry with myself?
Ok, I find it very random. They are just my thoughts. I picked out some from here some from there.
Is this the most we can do?
I always thought.
