30Dec

Went to work. Before that went to eat nicenice muaiji. Memorable one, is when both me and my aunt were at the front selling, suddenly our chicken rice 'neighbour'

SHOUTED: XIAO MEI XIAO MEI, ZHAO HUO LE! which means HE WAS SHOUTING AT ME THERE'S A FIRE! What I thought was, what for call me? Like I know what to do. I was unusually calm. Then my aunt went to put it off. What happened was one cupboard caught on fire from the stove. It was burning. A small fire. Lucky it was discovered early I can say.

WHAT HAPPENED NEXT WAS EPIC. Our chicken rice 'neighbours' all started blabbling nonsense EG, MY CHILDREN ARE STILL YOUNG AH! I HAVENT HAVE WIFE AND HAVENT HAVE CHILDREN YET!

I WAS LAUGHING! They just keep saying how and why they don't want to die.They are indeed our area jokers.

31Dec

Went to work. Before that went to eat western food!:DIt's nice! HAHA my aunt brought me around for NICE FOOD!

I got bad stomachache I thought I ate wrong thing. Then I start recalling if I EVER DID. In the end was we womens problem. To think I actually thought I ate wrong things. It was HALFWAY of work. Troublesome! And I looked weird when I went nearby to buy. Especially when my shoe have no more friction and it was especially FRIGHTENING when I take the escalator that has no steps. I just have to grip the handle so tight if not I WILL SLIDE DOWN. Oh and I did a lot of spacing out today. I felt pressured at work everytime and my aunt said I did improve!

TODAY I LEARNT A LOT ABOUT MY CHILDHOOD AND ALSO ABIT ABOUT MY FUTURE. My childhood: what happened when I was a baby.

Okay, enoughh of today and yesterday. I SHALL REFLECT ON THE WHOLE YEAR before it is over. ...

YAY!:D We reached 700 business today!:D Which is a good one! Then we REALLY have to pack and go. REALLY no more noodles/rice left. And we went back EARLY!! :D

At least me starving and going so thirsty because of it is worth after all!

I can always relate my work to BAND! Seriously. There will always be ups and downs. Sometimes, business good, sometimes bad. When it is bad, I will feel like giving up. But you have to keep your faith. Like how last time I was chanting that people will come. In the end, business was good! At the end where we will calculate the sales for the day, it's when you know your efforts will not go down drain. It's the same for our syf. We go for syf and on that day, we will know it.

I was reading Liar Game yesterday till past midnight. A nice manga.

Band today. Mr Lester Lim came over!:DAMAZING GUY~~I learnt a lot from him!

Whatever he mentioned, hit the BULL'S EYE!

Lunched. And AGAIN. I suffer. It's really a bad habit. Really bad habit. A stupid 闷气。

Very stupid. Letting myself suffer, and the people around me.

Nothing to do with band. Nothing to do with what personal problems. If only YOU knew why.

Sometimes, I don't control my emotions well enough.

Anyway, sat on the bus with Wadariah and Cheehan!:D Chit chatted.

"Missmok: Happy new year to you too! Take good care of yourself, 2010 will be a busy year for you.

Shiyun: Next year, you will go crazy until you feel like pulling your hair. Really. Don't know why either. The stress."

Ha! Miss mok said that to me at the start of 2010. Not really very busy like she said.

Then Shiyun said that to me today, at the end of 2010. We'll see how!

It's amazing how it seems as though it's been not long before miss mok said that to me.

I can only say 2010 past in a flash.

Be not angry that you cannot make others as you wish them to be, since you cannot make yourself as you wish to be."

— Thomas á Kempis

trust

"An act very noble one. But, what many people do that they call 'trust' , is actually giving up on trying to understand others. And that has nothing to do with 'trust', but is rather apathy. Apathy is a far more devastating act than doubting others. The true evil is becoming apathetic about other people."

Doubt them. Question them, suspect them..and take a good, long look into their hearts. Humans are the kind of beings that can't put their pain into words, after all.

Work only.Krow. My leg is starting to ache from krowing.

Nothing special except for one customer who said 'jiayou'.

I was slow, very slow last time. But only not fast now. Then this young guy told me to take my time, and encouraging words. I was thinking, of course I can't. There are people waiting behind.

Then before he left, he said 'jiayou' shyly. My reaction, smile. :D So sweet to get encouragment!

Another moment, my aunt and I was cutting food in silent. She broke the silence by saying that I was very talkative when I am young, no one can stop me from talking. On the car, I will go on and on, at a supersonic speed and they will ignore me. My dad complained to her he can't stand me too.

But then now, no longer.

My reply, 'I finished my words'. And as she carry on, to prove that her saying is right, my reply was, smile, only.

I don't know why either. Sometimes I will even run out of things to say and ask my brother, what to say??????

As I grow up, my words lessen. Now talkative is no longer in my dictionary. And I am finding it back.

:)

I am yilian. Have a nice day.

Band in the morning. I can only say I am getting happier in our band practices.

Finding back the good old times. I can feel it. We are improving. We are playing more together now.

I went to school at 9AM IN THE MORNING to take instru from Mr Tan.

Too many instru to carry, I was stuck at the foyer for AT LEAST 45MINS.

FINALLY MICHELLE CAME! Junhui helped to carry too!:D

During that 45mins, I looked like an idiot sitting there. But glad that I used that time to do hmk!

Finished many exercises for chinese!XD

I LOVE TODAY'S SECTIONAL! It was productive and we improved a lot.

I'm loving trombone section more and more! We planned our section tee and we planned our section outing today! We are awesome right!XD

The three of us, even though only three, I can feel the bonding between us. Talking is easy and we understand each other more and more. Howjin is very on too! Section outing? Ok!

Sad that it was CANCELLED!:( I freaking FORGOT totally about my work.We were still discussing where to go after going Top Brass, we must take a lot of photos!

In the end was only my wistful thinking! I thought I am still a free little rabbit. BUT NEVERMIND! We still have next year!:D

Late for work. DId more hmk on the bus!Heh! Fall asleep while working== I am freaking tired. ALMOST fell asleep during band when mr tan correcting other sections. But when we started playing, I AM AWAKE AND EXCITED!

Fall asleep on bus back.

See how tired I was. Hmm..ytd night I was watching MVs one after another.

I understood today that if I still don't have enough sleep, I am going to suffer a lot, alot.

ANWYAY,

Qns and Ans BETWEEN EUPHO AND TROMBONE:

• Eupho's sectional OR Trombone's sectional : Eupho's sectional.
• Eupho's exseniors OR Trombone's exseniors: Eupho's!
• Euphonium OR Trombone: TROMBONE.
• Eupho's people OR Trombone's people: Hee! TROMBONE'S!

YAY!:D I like euphonium, but I love trombone. ANDAND, Trombone's sectional are getting better and better! Of course, exseniors brings me memories where I belong. I don't belong to any of trombone's. I loove trombone people! Seriously, trombone is more bonded and less problem. Partly because we have lesser people lah. But we are all very cooperative with each other! THATSSSSSS AAAAAALLL! My thoughts after changing for at least one month.

SLEEP SOON! And I am glad I joined band, really glad. I felt what Mr Tan mentioned, playing in a band brings away all your worries. Your most wonderful hours! I felt this, today.

Oh Baby, HONEY HONEY HONEY!

So sweeeet to love! But SAD that I love nobody now.

I only loveeeeeee my friends.

yilian: at this time next year, I will be at Malaysia.

aunt: wah you are already thinking of next year!

yilian: yea, i am going to stay there for the whole holiday

aunt: why?!?!you got so many months! at least 3months for you next year

yilian: yea thats why i want go back and stay with them. i think that we spent too little time together.

aunt: dont lah, go work. next year people will want hire you already, its a good time to work

yilian: what for? is money that impt?

aunt: no. but it's not about money leh, it's about work experience. its a good time to acquire experience, so nxt time you will know

yilian: *starts thinking*

My heart: What I really want is to baleh kampong and stay with my relatives. My brain: But work experience is impt, and I don't know when I will have the chance to work part time alr. And almost all will go try out working, I will lose out if I don't.

The losing out part is stupid I know, but that's what I thought. I will have disadvantage over the rest. I will see how as we move on.

MOVE ON BECAUSE LIFE GOES ON. Now lets just enjoy our last five days of 2010 and MOVE ON to a better year ahead! 2010 gives me good memories.

WORKKK!!!!:D

I love working, I LOVE school!

Working made me realise the importance of EDUCATION.

Business okok lah. Just that today we baleh kampong very early!!:D

Feels very weird! We just sold finish then we say can pack and go home.

Like really cause we sold finish already. Therefore went home earlyyyy!

My last working day: 2JAN 2011 Sunday

Gosh, 2011 is coming! Beware!

I'm gonna miss working there!!D:

The people there to be exact!!

They are SO FUN!!!!!

Hahas, today my 'neighbour' treat me chicken rice again!:D

He brought over to us, and brought a whole bowl of chilli! Then he JOKE again.

I said, WHY NO SOUP?!

He got a shock. LOL. And say, you want you come here take yourself lah, still want me take for you ah har.

We were laughing.

But in awhile, he BROUGHT OVER! LOL.

All laughing. Then he said which I REMEMBERED!

"Wah my wife also never so good, chan lor!'

He refering to treating his wife also wont so good. LOL.

Very ah beng whenever he talk. And LOUD!

He want me to be LOUD.

Damn, I will miss all this fun when I return school and have to stop working there .TT

And because of him, I thought that it will be sooooo good if I am a fun person too. Then I can have SO MUCH FUN WITH THEM!

:DTake care.

Christmas day=Working day

No christmas atmosphere leh. So I just imagine it myself while working.I looked around, if I didn't know, I won't realise today is christmas. Just like a normal day, just that people seems happier, people seems to be all walking at a relax pace.

Worked all the way. Nothing interesting except for today no business, I wiped our mirror, and my chicken rice 'neighbour'.

The first time I used newspaper and wipe the super duper totally blur mirror.

I was wiping with my heart and soul. And I got a praise from my aunt that I did well. Then because of that, I continued to wipe with all my might. Just like how a daughter want to perform well to be praised by her mother. Now it became a super duper somewhat clear mirror.

I wiped until I felt very uncomfortable and tired. Weird feeling I don't like.

But I'm proud of myself!(Y)

Then is this young guy from the stall beside ours. He came over to chitchat.

He is funny!:DHe is the one who made my working experience fun. LOL.

Likes to joke and always bully me.

He like to bully people but nobody can bully him.

Then he taught me how to 'work'. As in to really work properly. He is good at talking. Out of everything like bullying, laughing at people, singing out loud so many times, I can see that he has a matured and serious side. Sometimes all those are just to cover it.

He is the one who treat me food too!:D

To sum it up, an interesting guy!

Lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!

LOVE!

Christmas Presents from clique

Lovely!:D

Amelia: RABBIT Soft toy! Very cute!:DI love soft toys! But sad that it is expensive.

Amelia spent a lot on all the presents. Even though it is the thought that counts, I am touched by it.

ShiMin: Photoframe and SWEETS! I love the sweets!:D It came at the right time! And she is the only one giving food!:DPhotoframe is alright!:D

Sheryl: Cup and a NOTE! The cup is alright!:DBut it is the note that made her present special and touching!

Michelle: Ear Piece!:DI didn't expect it! Before I badly want an earpiece and had one from Amelia.

But I didnt expect Michelle to actually know I want it! I love it!

And I realised all the 4 presents I like and are special in it's own way. LEFT TINGWEI'S!:D

Exchanging presents are fun! My first time exchanging!

Ok, so now is past 12 while I was blogging halfway.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!:D

Amelia was the first one I wished! I was chatting with her and suddenly realised, 12 NOW!:D

Then phone called baobei JiaXin just to wish her!:DDD

My Christmas Eve:

Woke up later than expected, but still managed to do some hmk and practice instru.

And then I was very hungry, so asked Dad to buy for me. I didn't finish it as I was running late.

Went over to amk hub with Trombone and it was INCONVENIENT!D:

I can't squeeze in the shop==

And after I settled Amelia's present, she came!:D

I AM REALLY GRATEFUL!

All the while, she was with me even though she has no need to.

:D

I had a big headache over what to buy and worst is the rush of time.

Amelia knew almost everything, how I was cheapskate and bought very little at first.

But she knew nothing about hers'.

I was feeling lost and I didnt know what I was doing. I just buy when Ilike it. Then come regrets.

And money was running out too. But I have no time left to shop. So left for Bishan to find MrTan's one and to have lunch. Again, I saw smth I like and decide to add to the clique's present.

Had a cheap and quick lunch. And we have no time left!

Went over to orchard to find MrTan's one.

But even if we are late and we insist on going to find the BEARD, we are left disappointed.

RAN ON THE ORCHARD ROAD. I said countless 'sorry' to strangers and just make my way to the venue with Trombone.

I am damn late. We were damn late.

PERFORMED.

Went back to huayi while I have time to get the presents ready.

Exchanged at huayi!:DIT'S SO FUN!

I am glad they like my presents. I didn't expect it. I was really glad.

To sum my journey up, Amelia and me have good stamina!

We ran and ran with our instruments even though we felt like dying.

The feeling of having a purpose and the feeling of being glad is really nice.

We ran our way because we want to reach there as soon as we can. At least I want to. The feeling was so strong.

And when they liked my presents, my heart feel touched. Until can cry those. LOL.

A bit exaggeration from me.

Taxi back to home. Chat with Jinghui and Michelle!:D

Now that I wrote everything out, I actually felt that it was not a bad christmas eve.

I was late. I looked at MrTan, I felt ashamed because of it.

And then I was not feeling very happy with myself.And I felt awkward with people at times.

But now that I see, I actually learnt from it.

A very reflective christmas eve(:

Yolanda Adams- Never give up (lyrics)

I'm addicted to this song.

I am going crazy because I am so hungry NOW!D:

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!:D

EDIT: I finished half of chinese bk alr. Jiayous! Still got time for the other half!

I shouldn't be here.

I should be getting ready for bed.

I have been reaching home at near 11 recently because of work.

And, I HAVE TO SLEEP EARLY.

So that I can wake up early tomorrow.

But, since I have to wait for my hair to dry and have my dinner, it will do no harm to be

here! TOMORROW REST DAY FOR ME. No work.

Which is like the only day , due to Huayi performance!:D

So, I have to complete those overdue stuffs all in tomorrow.

And I cannot oversleep till noon if not all my plans will be down the drain.

If that happens, I will not expect myself to be able to finish all the homework by the time school reopen.

So I will pray that I will wake up in time. *praying*

Oh and Mr Tan really have good ears! He called while I was sleeping and he knew it from my voice. Even though I have already tried to sound awake.

Business today is the same as yesterday.

I find that my 'neighbour', the chicken rice one, they a bit proud due to their good business.

Their business is really very good. And I was a bit irritated by them.

But, they still nice because they treat me chicken rice!:D

2010 is ending soon. I shoudn't be sad since life goes on. Life doesn't revolve around 2010.

Goodbye!:D

EDIT: Oh and I saw mayflower the detention lady while working!:DI realised that quite many mayflower ppl live near my workplace! And MY DAD CAME TO VISIT ME TOO!:D

It is better to believe
than to disbelieve;
in so doing you bring everything
to the realm of possibility.

~ Albert Einstein ~

zhean says:
*yea i know right
*sigh
*okok
*so yea
*i think it sounded not as bad
*just need to work on stuff like intonation and the running notes stuff
*oh and all the exposed parts
YiLian says trust me says:
*exposed parts?
zhean says:
*like your part and the trumpets
*trumpets got some melody
*i dunno wad song
*but i think you shd noe wad i talking
zhean says:
*hmm
*lol
*you want noe why i say it's ok?
YiLian says trust me says:
*why?
zhean says:
*cuz you guys got a damm loud and stable bass
*you know the tuba is like boom boom boom all the way?
*even mr tan cannot control them!
YiLian says trust me says:
*hahas! amelia will be damn happy!
zhean says:
*lol
YiLian says trust me says:
*but to them they dont think they are loud and stable
zhean says:
*but make sure they still keep tempo la
*they are
YiLian says trust me says:
*we are softer than huayi
zhean says:
*then cover all the mid range instrus
*with it...
*lol

*i dunno about huayi but i think tmf band is still alright

Amelia, be glad!!:DI think you will think still not good enough.

Anyway, I am really happy during band. It's been long since I am really happy.

We had phototaking and trombone section went first!:D

And back to full band. I am happy because I am slowly, getting the feeling back.

The feeling I got when I first stepped inside band room and listened to the band play.

My heart beat faster. I am once again touched by the music, even though it was very slight.

A LOT OF EX SENIORS CAME BACK!:D I am happy!:D

Somehow, I feel proud. I want to feel proud. To show them, 'hey this is our band now. we are improving. we are good. Infront of them. And I am. I am not sure if it is self delusion by looking at only the good points in us but I am.

Anyway, happy jiu hao.

I am only sad when I am damn late for work. For near one hour. Damn damn!

On the way there, I put on my earpiece and blasted the music. My mind was loud.

I starts to reflect on everthing that happened during band. I thought of what Mr Tan said to me. I thought of JiaHeng.

Because I am late, IN THE END NO FREE FOOD!:(

But business is not bad!:D

I will sum everything off with I must sleep soon!If not tomorrow will have a hard time.

To do list:

• Pay fees for music school
• Buy Christmas presents.
• Finish up homework.
• Practice instruments. Practice practice and still practice.

Practice properly makes perfect.

yilian says she is tired

Now, I am. More of physically. WORKING IS TIRING!

But, it is FUN!:D

Anyway, huayi in the morning!:D Sheryl and me are damn early!:D

But, I have to leave so early too!D: And the worst happened!

Mr Tan did not arrive at 9am and my practice with them was short and even short.

I dragged and in the end have to take the EXPENSIVE cab!==

Dental appointment!:DI put on the Christmas colours for my braces! GREEN AND RED!

THEN WORKKKKKKK.

Luckily I have my kind dad!:D Therefore took his car!

I am STILL late. And work makes me cannot sleep:(

I have to 'open' my eyes. At first has no customer. Totally quiet.

Warm weather makes me sleepy.

Then, zooom!

They came flooding in~~Business good!

Not a happy day. I kena scolded for almost dozens time. TT

I kept on doing wrong things and I am slow.

BUT, I LOVE THE PEOPLE THERE!:D My 'neighbours'!:D

They treat me food!:D

And, they are fun and nice people!:D They managed to cheer me up!:D

Now then I had my dinner. And working is wearing me out.

It is frustrating. Working there seems to have magnified x100 most of my flaws.

I was pushed to my limits. That's why I love working!:D

I really must sleep early as said by my aunt.

If not you won't see happy yilian tomorrow!

:D

side note: what I learnt today: huayi's band major is fierce.

i like how she has the confidence. 'you hate me your business'

sometimes I don't understand too. 'yilian is not fierce enough.'

I don't understand myself.

Because I am afraid people will hate me or I have no confidence myself.

But even if I am not fierce, there are some who will still hate me.

So what is the point of being the way I am now?

When the more I stay like that , 'bo chap' attitude, the more everything will go down the drain.

I really hate how things turned out. And I am being real dumb. I think so very much!==

When things don't turn out nice, because I am used to it, I will angry myself. In other words, beating myself up. AND THAT IS REALLY DUMB. And it is not like things will be solved if I did this.So, it is useless. Waste my energy too! I did nothing wrong so why am I angry with myself?

Ok, I find it very random. They are just my thoughts. I picked out some from here some from there.

Is this the most we can do?

I always thought.

When I did nothing, it is when my heart didn't want to bother anymore.

When my heart no longer wants to believe.

Business is bad. Is worst. I'm sad.

Now I found it hard to find time for other stuffs. Fees not paid. Presents not bought.

But, I am going early tomorrow to self practice! Like damn early!:D

I just hope that any teacher can open the rooms for me at that time!

Today is the 19th. I looked at the calender. Two more weeks and holiday is over.

Goodbye:D

EDIT: I have to say, sometimes people have to just accept to their fate.

It's sad. Real sad.

While I chat with my aunt, I realised and understood, a lot.

They can't enjoy life.

They kept quiet. But their heart is shouting out at you.

I felt it.

How they have already resigned to their fate.

Yes, they work at hawker centre. They are working at low class places.

But so what. At least they are working hard. They are giving their best. Why are you looking down on them when they did nothing wrong. It is NOT their choice.

In fact, because they suffered, they will be a better person.

Better than those who live at comfort.

I was so sad. I can't do anything now. But I hope I can do so in the future.

I want to give them the best things. I want them to enjoy life.

So, for now, what I can do is just to study hard. Real hard.

So that I can get good grades and get into a good school.

Study because you want a life of choice. And then I can get a good job.

I don't want it to be just a dream. Yet sadly, for now, it is.

I have already, neglected my studies.

Work. Business is not good. I did a lot of mistakes.

Self doubts, low self esteem.... everything negative starts banging on my head.

A feeling to give up will automatically come up too.

I was feeling horrible. Why can't I just stop doing wrong things!

And I was scolded again and again.

I LOVE WORKING! :D

Because of all this!

It made me learn, forced me to change and grow up.

Don't believe you are good now. Because the room for improvement is so big.

AND, I SAW LEE HUI!:D

She lives near there, and while I was working, she came in my sight.

WE GOT A SHOCK!

I can't believe I can actually meet people I know!

I was damn happy!:D

This morning I just slept in. I can't wake up. Though my mind was damn active, my body wasnt.

I have like so many things left to do yet I can't wake up.

Oh and I recovered from sorethroat! Like overnight! I guess it's because I sleep and sleep!

AND NOW I MUST FINISH UP MY HOMEWORK BEFORE I GO SLEEP.

But I am stuck at my com. My speed now is a turtle's.

I need sleep soon so as to wake up early tomorrow.

I don't want to wake up just to work. I want to have a life.

takecare!

EDIT: My blogskin became so screwed now. But who cares. Changed the songs! I am currently addicted to guo shu yao's voice. I will listen to it while doing my homework!(:

Work. Business is not good today. !:(

My sorethroat got worst.

Hello!(:

Work today was good. Business was good!:D

I am really glad our ex seniors are still concerned about band!:D

I contacted quite a lot of them!:D

And no! I do not want to hear people say our band cmi already!

no more!

Our fellow members MUST get up on our feet and raise MCB again!

CAN'T WAIT FOR O TO BECOME O-V-E-R.

OVER!

EDIT: First time felt this strong desire.

I SUDDENLY OF SOMETHING. I heard people say want go band early to practice,

WHY DIDNT I THOUGHT OF IT??

I SUDDENLY WANT TO GO EARLY TO PRACTICE TOO!

OK. Decided.

I AM GOING EARLY ON FRIDAY.

I like truthful me. I like the feeling of truthfulness. No longer trap.

Hello(:

Today band practice.(:

Trumpet section is big! I love it!

And we have a new tutor, Mr Richard Png.

Omg, he looked serious and professional.

And I start to assume a lot of things.

I went to speak to saxophone, and in the end it was opposite!

I was shock!

He turned out to be funny and nice. LOL.

My tutoring is fun too! I like Mr Phisid!:D He is very funny! AND I LOVE HIS FAITH!

Mr Phisid: My band has 25 members.

We: Why so small?

Mr Phisid: The school...

Mr Phisid: But I believe if we play...we will get the results.

He meant, if we play well, we can get the result we want.

I really love how he believed in his band.

He speak of it so easily, his belief for them yet felt so strong.

What are we doing giving up when we have almost twice his size and even he didnt?

Don't you feel ashamed?

That is what I thought.

I AM HAPPY TODAY.

When I arrived in band room, members were practicing hard!

And I can feel that the morale of members are rising!

That's the way! We can can can can can can can sure confirm can do it!

We will go all the way till that important day, and show the world we can do it!

Bravo!:D

Oh, and I find that ChoonHiang is a nice person!:D

Though he look serious outside, inside he is nice and gentle.

Hee! Starting from tomorrow, I have to go working daily.

I will do the most I can for band.

Mum overseas now.

No event today. Bought a clock for use in band room.

Who are you? Who am I?

Firstly, work today, I GOT 30BUCKS PAY!:D

Business was better than my first day, but still not up to expectation.

Sheryl Ho went to my workplace today!:D

And my ahma from malaysia was there too!:D

Went home with aunt and ahma. And I got to learn about my father!

To think of it, we should never forget our roots, where we came from.

I have learnt a lot about my father during this few days.

My father is the eldest and he receives the highest education in the family.

He have this solo character.

And they told me how the girls in the family are only allowed to study until primary 6.

重男轻女

which is very common in olden days.

And that my father is the one who persuaded my grandfather to let my aunt study.

I am proud of my stubborn dad!:D

And it made me realise how most people in my generation don't cherish.

And it is getting worse. People's mindset change as time goes by.

Nowadays, there are people who will want to forsake their studies as they have their choice.

Band. It made me realise and understand a lot too. People change, life goes on.

You just have to compare people from the past and now, how different. How far away.

But still, we must embrace all the changes and change with it, in the right way. Life goes on.

I am determined. I will show you my fighting spirit.

AND I CRIED. I CRIED HARD.

I AM TOO TOUCHED.

I AM REALLY GLAD. REALLY REALLY REALLY.

AWW MAN I AM GOING SOLO TOMORROW!

EVEN HOW JIN IS NOT COMING!

D:

Long grandma story(:

Everything starts off with me going for HCJC concert yesterday night.

I am ready two hours before.

But then my relatives are still in my house, they are getting ready for the Wedding dinner.

I find it rude to go out before they does, therefore waited.

My concert and the wedding dinner starts at the same time.

The moment they left, I went out. It was 7pm and I am going to be late.
I was shock when I saw the waiting time for the bus.

I was in a dilemma.

Go concert or forget about it.

Just when I decide to forget about it and call my aunt,

a man came up to me. A conman maybe.

He just kept talking and I cant hear!

He has bad intention. Like want money those kind.

Then I'm lucky to be on the phone, I slowly walked away.

Just when I turned to walk away, one aunty was hiding behind, preparing to save me.

LOL! We have eye contact and she mouthed "ignore him".

I understood and just kept walking. I'm a bit scared!=(

Just then, I changed my mind. I GO FOR THE CONCERT.

I turned to find my bus finally there and I ran after it like mad.

Self-reminder not to regret. And off I went.

Damn, I am 30mins late. A construction worker showed me the direction!:D

And, I left after ONE song. But no regrets!:D

The school is damn pretty. I went with the intention of looking at the school and the band.

Their band is good and big!:D Just that. I'm contented.

I really want to stay, but still. I got birthday party. 8bucks for one song. (Beauty and the beast)

Travelled back. And off to Malaysia!:D We reached at 11plus.

But lucky the party is not over yet. I went for the barbecue food.

And chat with my 5th uncle. He is damn nice! I like him!

After that, when he going to leave, I stood outside.

Our eyes met and I guess he can feel the sadness in me.

It's like the night was so short and I hate farewells=(

When almost all left, I had the karaoke all to myself!:D

I challenged myself to sing out loud. I'm shy.

I sang my heart out till 3plus in the morning.

Went to sleep and I have to wake up early=(

Came back to Sg in my dad's car.

Slept in the car.

I had a quick nap for about 30mins at home before going for my music lessons.

I'm amazed that I didn't oversleep. I actually woke up automatically!:D

After my lessons, I came home to have a quick bath and went out again.

For the whole morning, I didn't eat. I can feel my body aching too.

Had lunch with Sheryl and we were late for the meeting up with the rest.

Went for YuYing concert. NICE!:D After that had dinner with awesome ppl!:D

AND I AM HOMED.

For this two days, I felt like I have been chasing after time.

But I am lucky.

Lucky that my work is pushed to tomorrow and lucky that swimming today was postponed.

If not I wonder if I will become super woman.

Very very eventful. I craved for my bed when I was rushing from one place to another.

And in the meanwhile, I have a thought.

Very different from before.

When almost all was thinking of having fun or going to work after their 'O',

I just want to go back to Malaysia and spend time with my relatives.

To stick with them wherever they go. They are awesome!

Maybe, for the whole month.

I feel that we are spending too little time together.

THANK YOU AMELIA FOR THE EARPHONE!:D

Yi Nian. Liang Nian. San Nian.

My name is Yi Nian. (They mistook my name as Yi Nian) :D

I just woke up. Had a sweet dream. :)

But somehow, it ended up as a nightmare.

I hate nightmare, especially when I'm having it quite frequently nowadays.

Anyway, I was sleeping halfway when my mum suddenly squeeze in to sleep with me.

I kinda got a shock and jumped up.

And I resume my sleep. Imagine that.

I was squeezing in a single bed with her, sharing a blanket, can't move an inch.

Gonna be away from Singapore for a night and a morning!:D

I shall think twice whether to answer call or reply to msgs when I'm there.

Oh and someone sponsor me an earphone please.please.

On the way, I can't listen to songs. I cant listen to Taishan! =(

I will be very grateful to you and I will say my thanks. So ...can I have one?

Faith

I believe. But if you ask me why.

I used to believe that I believe because I will be happier if I choose to believe.

And if I asked, why don't you believe.

It's the same as asking why I believe. And it's more of a feeling rather than having any reason.

However, now. I believe because I want to get there. Therefore I believe in myself.

Whatever. It may be the case where I didn't actually believe we can make it.

But because we are halfway through. Why not finish the fight with all your might. Instead of hanging there because you don't believe you can make it there.

We already made it to here.

We are almost there. Fight with all our might.

I really thought you will understand. If not maybe you will think the same way.

But in fact, most of you didn't. I believe that you, will believe.

EDIT: "I think she made a good choice." I'm glad to hear that(:

Update update(:

Feels especially tired today. And I fell asleep after I got home.

Partly because, again, I can't sleep last night!!=(

Oh I went to visit my relatives who just came to Singapore. Therefore reached home damn late.

And I dragged myself up this morning. Of course! I wont be late.

I love full band! And after lunch, marching. It's been long since I marched!:D

It's interesting!:D Which adds to my tiredness.

Sometimes, it's stupid you didn't even bother to try. What for waste your time then.

I'm glad I'm tired because of marching.

But whatever. I slept just now and I am happy now!:D

I.am.going.to.malaysia.tomorrow.yay.

And another batch of my relatives came to my house just 30mins ago, damn I'm shy.

I'M PROUD TO SAY I WENT TO THE GYM TO TRAIN MY ARM MUSCLE AS INSTRUCTED BY MR TAN!:DDD

I forgot to mention I asked Huayi bass trombonist how she trained herself,

as recommended by jyh harng.

I was impressed. I am.

She told me she brought home her instrument everyday.

I was asking how many days you practice once, and she said everyday.

And she taught me how to train myself, do those exercises.

I am impressed. She is a secondary two this year.

No wonder. No wonder she is good.

Including huayi people.

But I don't dare ask their section leader!@.@

He look so serious. I don't have the guts!

He confirm got even better ideas on how to train.

Anyway, I am going off to Malaysia this Saturday to attend my cousin's bday party!

Woots~ I can't wait for it!

Oh and, I really really really want to go to HCJC 's band concert.

But it clashes with my Malaysia trip!=( I want to go badly!

My dad says, which one is more important to you.

In other words, he want me to think for myself and go for the one I want.

Hopefully, I can get to go for both! Really hopefully.

band with huayi

Hello!(:

Okay. I really should blog about today to learn my lesson. I am freaking late for band!

At 9.25am sharp, I literally jumped out of bed. I wouldnt know why too, maybe my body can sense I'm in big trouble. And I was like, oh my gosh I'm late, I'm late.

All the thoughts start rushing into my brain.

I asked all to be seated by 9.30 and here I am, still at home. Will miracle happen and I wont be late?Is this a dream? Die already die already....

And then first instinct is to call Jollibbee. Okay and I know I'm not dreaming.

I rushed down in taxi and I am freaking late by 5mins. To consider it, if it's normal practice, things wont be so bad. It was especially when I myself said all to be seated by 9.30am.

I will learn my lesson.

I guess I was too tired, and just kept on sleeping. Yesterday night I couldn't sleep. I don't know why, I kept on fidgetting. Stayed awake till 2plus. I guess that's why I overslept.

And I reached, after huayi people.

Had tutoring from Mr Pisid!:D I just add him as my fb friend!!

It was fun and productive! I have to admit It helps a lot! Cheers to money! With money bring tutor! We ARE going to benefit from it!

And we went back for full band. Oh my gosh! That's big!

I LOVE BIG BAND! I LOVE SO MANY PEOPLE!

It makes me excited!:D So many people! Hahas! And I enjoyed myself playing with them. Only one word: Loud. (Y) Huayi people are welcomed! Utmost welcome to them!

Heh!:D

After band, something happened, It kept me reflecting. Yeah, I should really reflect on it.

Gym with Sheryl Ho tomorrow!:D

And I can't sleep now because I just woke up.

EDIT: I ran around parade square 1 and half big rounds(3courts) and 3 to 5 small rounds(1court). Somehow, I lost count and just kept running. It is FOR BEING LATE.

njc concert

Hello!(:

I'm back from njc's concert!:D

Anyway, today went jogging with Sheryl Ho before going to the concert!:D

I'm late for the concert for near 15mins..

NJC is great, is bigger than MF(of course)

Went inside and got a seat. This concert is short.

It lasted only for one hour. But the band is good.

Jyh Harng came in later than me and we sat together.

After the concert, we went to talk to Serene!:D

There she is with her friend, someone only I don't know.

Then her friend, Jyh harng and me sat down to chat while waiting for Serene.

Okay, it's quite awkward and I didnt speak much.

When Serene finally came, we walked to the bus stop together.

Left them and took bus with Jyh Harng as they want go eat.

Chat on the long bus ride and here I am!Homed!:D

It's a lovely night!:D

Oh and I'm eating my dinner now, damn hungry.

And I am sneezing non-stop now..

after work

HELLO!:D

I'm back from work.

I love productive days!:D

Firstly band: huayi members came. Sad to say, they were greeted by ugly sight.

After band rushed off to work.

I'm lucky to have Fatin in the same bus, I'm less lonely on the long bus ride!LOves~

Today's business was not good.

But there were different kinds of customer. Kind , friendly, funny and of course, a few bad customers.

Though I'm still quite slow, It went rather smoothly compared to when I'm 11, the real first time I work. Everything was in a mess back then.

Working is really fun!I had fun!:DDD Nice experience.

Unlucky was I forgot to bring my storybook and handphone!!Felt damn insecure.

Next working day: This Sunday.

I GOT TODAY'S PAY 30BUCKS.HAHAHA

Oh, I got our choice piece's CD today too, YAY!! It's damn NICE~!

Hahas, to sum up, I love today! :D

Tomorrow staying at home to settle homework and stuffs. AND, national's concert.

Now I can just lie on bed and sleep soundly.

:DGood bye!:D

off to work

Yeah, it's Monday and I am going to work.

Tomorrow starts off with band practice and off to work.

Sunday is pretty sunny for me.

The Sun was scorching.

I went to my workplace for lunch and to familiarise with the place.

With my ever supportive mother!:D

I am now slowly..savouring my dinner and it's very late.

Good bye!^.^

work hard

Helllo!:D

Today I AM very guai!:D

I did not watch TV!

Since I woke up and had my brunch,

I had been clearing my room!:D

It's not easy and I spent my whole afternoon on it.

Not done yet!!=(

All my lower secondary work and even primary school!

While clearing, math have been the hardest to clear. I will look at it and,

I will think that till now I still don't know how to solve.

And I am aware that my results have not been good.

They are either good enough or bad. I didn't really work hard.

It's kinda pathetic, not having felt the sense of accomplishment.

I shall work really hard for 'O'!

TODAY IS A SATURDAY!:D

go for your dream

SPREAD ITS WINGS

Although, I'm inexperienced

instead of being worried,

I wish someone would hug me silently.

Although it's hard for me,

if I'm sick for a moment,

I hope my dreams can get me back on my feet.

*Open your wings

and try to fly to the sky.

Goodbye to tears and goodbye to the pain

I won't cry anymore.

Open your wings

and yell to the world with all your strength.

I won't be the same as yesterday,

if I fly with you.

Although I'm exhausted at times,

I can't give up now,

this is the beginning, look over me,

I'm not scared anymore

(repeat*)

I love this song!

Like now!!:D

photos for clique

<--TUBA!:D

for Amelia!:D

<---French horn!:D

Very expensive one!:D

See the bell, can be removed!

<--another French Horn!:D

From this picture you can't spot,

but it's damn tiny! It's a french horn and

a Trumpet!:D

<--Mr Tan trying the French Horn/Trumpet!:D

<--AND LASTLY,

This photo is taken to prove the size of the French Horn!:DDD

Cute Mr Tan!:D

I love today!^.^

friday for fruitful and fun

Hello! I'm back home!:D

I shall share with you my adventure today!:D

Firstly, went school for cca leader meeting.

End up I realise huayi start practice at 9.30am instead of 12pm.

Then immediately contact jinghui and joyce.

We meet up and took cab down to huayi. Reached at 11plus.

We were considered lucky, as I was there for meeting therefore was ready,

and Sheryl tell me about the change of time!:D

Had practice with them, fun!:D and when it ended, we didn't go home.

Went for lunch with Mr Tan and was very full. Thanks to Mr Tan treating!:D

After lunch, we went to Top Brass, a shop for brass instruments.

Oh my, saw so many pretty instruments. After Top Brass,

we went to WindWorks, a shop for woodwind instruments.

Stayed there for quite some time before leaving for home!:D

And now around 6plus then I reached home.

Overall, it had been fun from firstly, we get to see music related stuffs we didn't see before.

Secondly, we had Mr Tan talking to us, enriching our music knowledge.

Oh! And we get to see this American guy who used to be from fbi.

Saw his new productions. His cool instruments! Felt honoured!

We were like on some kind of adventure,

and there's this period where it was raining very heavily.

Mr Tan have been very good to us! Treating and driving.

He has this fatherly feel, like how my father used to bring me around with his motorcycle.

We used to go around exploring!:D

It's only after talking and listening to Mr Tan have I realised how much I didn't know.

It seems I have assumed a lot of things.

I admire him!:D And I learnt a lot today!:D

handsome!:D

I drawn a picture,

suddenly the picture changes,

And I chose to walk out of it...

edited:

Super junior so handsome!!:D HAHA!

Sick of all these silly games, if only I'm neutral.

Nice drama

God of Study, I have finished. Nice! Thumbs up. Very touching. :D

Real studying is learning how to live the right way.

The god of study, wherever they are, whatever they do, works hard at living life.

Hello:)

I had a good sleep from 1130 all the way to 3. :DDD

Woke up with a phone call from Bee:DDD

TODAY IS A THURSDAY!

2ND December:D

God of Study ost!

How will you feel,

when you think to him, you are just one of them , yet to you,

he is put into the important category.

Sometimes, it's just pretence. Everyone's pretence.

To know the truth, one have to go for it.

The confident enough one will do it, and majority chose to stay.

-random thought.

huayi practice

Hello!:D

Went to huayi sec to practice today!:D

Early in the morning I dragged myself up. We left huayi at near four.

Went with clique and jinghui. ^^

The practice was not enough for me!

I still want to play with them but mr tan said can pack up. =(

I feel good playing with them. :DDD

I really love taishan!

Had a free ride back in mr tan's car. :)

And we went for our lunch at coffeeshop opposite school.

With mr tan, we sat there for at least three hours.

Mr Tan did most of the talking. :D

Ouh, I was feeling very tired since morning, and during that three hours,

I was 'sleeping'. I felt terrible, trying to keep my eyes open.

And in the end I succeeded.

I was kinda stuck there, as I want to go home to sleep, I was too tired to go home.

So I chose to stay in my position, and not move, staring into space.

For the whole time, mr tan was mostly looking at amelia,

But he realised. He is observant I can conclude.

And for the whole conversation, it's interesting.

I did listen to it okay, just that I get the main idea of it.

I can conclude from it is, study hard now.

You study hard and get yourself a high paying job, music is there to enjoy.

You have all the money you need, you can enjoy with whatever you enjoy.

Now that Im homed Im energetic instead. And I practiced trombone for awhile.

I like the hardworking me! :DDD

If you never try, you will never know.

Just like how I love trombone now, I never knew until I started it.

My heart did wavered.

But just keep the faith, things will be just fine.

Goodbye:D

Welcome my December

HELLOOO!:D

HAPPY DECEMBER 2010!:D

We shall make it a good one!

Zoom, I thought yesterday was Saturday.

TODAY IS A WEDNESDAY!!!(self-reminder)

and I am going over to huayi!:D

Anyway, so my Tuesday

-------spent watching God Of Study. I finished 10episodes in one day.

It is very nice and touching. The characters are handsome.

And they are young!!! Only two or three years older than me!

Omg, no wonder they look so young and have a different vibe.

Kind of inspired to study too. Hahas.

I guess I didnt mention I woke up crying. I had a nightmare.

Speaking of November,

I kinda hate it.

It's not productive you see.

The first two weeks I kinda spent on our cca break and I had this o level prep programme as well,

then zoom, two weeks flew past.

Then the next two weeks were spent thinking about the wasted first two weeks.

Hahahs, sort of exaggerated. It was actually because I didnt do any studying.

HERE COMES A NEW MONTH, A NEW START BABY!!~