Hello there I got 30dollars popular voucher! (:
I'm going to make full use of it.

So, today is a half -school day and we have high achievers tea. Woah and it's the first time I received prize too.

Actually, the reason why I am blogging now is simple. I want to get it out. I mean my feelings and all. Because I guess I'm used to telling my family about these kind of stuffs. Now I'm home and found it empty, I'm feeling uncomfortable. I'm feeling uncomfortable not being able to talk to someone about basically everything. So I'm writing out to make myself feel better. (:

I'm having this suppressed feeling whenever I'm outside/not with my families. I feel like it's another me acting out the role of yilian. And so when I'm back home I will always feel relief and light-hearted. I don't like this kind of me. I hope that I will be able to treat everyone as my family members. Maybe at least my friends. So, I can feel at ease.

HAHA, enough of the description of my feelings. So, today I attented the high achiever as an awardee and I realised only at the last minute. Actually it's because I received the form but I forgot. It was extremely long and dry. We rehearsed for hours and then the actual thing.

The only thing that caught my attention was Faye's and someone else's duet. Faye's mic got in the way and there's no sound but they continued anyway. They are really brave and I can see that the guy is a nice guy(I don't know him), I can feel that Faye feels comfortable with him. When there's still no sound coming from the mic, she got restless and maybe scared and embarrassed. My heart really goes out to her. And whose fault, the damn media tech. Urgh.
But Faye and that guy did a nice job. (:

And I'm really appreciative for the applause I received when I got up the stage.
That's few of the moments that I'm really happy. (:

That's the end of high achievers. I got really restless as it near the end. Btw I received the best in principles of accounts for secondary three express 2010 award and got popular voucher! Poa is really my saviour(: Because of it I experienced my first academic opportunities! But then, not receiving the special award which comprises 250dollars really disappoint me. Just because I am not from financial assistance. :(

Oh and the speech from our guest of honour inspires me!:D
"Do not give up before you even begin.If you say you cannot do it, you will never be able to do it."
It really relates to me well. (:

You, makes me waver and well..confused. And I don't like it. I should be much more capable than that. Or so I thought.

I'm done. It's a bit lengthy. (:
Now I feel so much better! Feelings to me only gets in the way.

Bye!