STUDY HARD YILIAN!

240days left!

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I wanna type out my feelings. But no word can describe. Or to be exact, no words I like that I think can describe. Am I happy? Not really. I don't like my character sometimes. I get jealous of people sometimes. Procrastination can kill. How wonderful it is after a long day you can chill out infront of the computer. But impt and urgent things still need to be settled. Period.

I can't get to the future I am stuck in the present I miss the past.

I miss you. I had dream again last night. Best part of the day when it is a good one(:

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goodbye(:

and weekend is here!

Taeyang - Wedding Dress [HD]

:D

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Hi not very much in the mood to blog now.

Went out with LiLi in the afternoon and bought colourful pens:D

Goodbye for now(:

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Had a long sleep:D

And had dreams, oh so sweettt!

My head hurts yesterday. I had a bad day.

I think they were just symptoms that slowly led to the deadly.

Hah so ridiculous.

I will Study hard from now on oh please.

yilian:D

I'm pretty much not satisfied with the way I live my life.

I will have a major change in my lifestyle.

Everything is interlinked which sucks.

I will start everything from the basic.

YiLian.

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I can sense it now.

It is really coming soon.

When all the dates and time are known.

I thought a lot. The thoughts that belong only to me.

What is it that I really want and that really suits me?

I am fighting against what I dream of and the reality.

We had a english workshop this afternoon by the author of our compre book.

I left early and I bet I miss out a lot.

I am afraid. I am nervous. I am anxious.

The reality...

'O' Level episode

COMING SOON!

OH GOSH I FEEL LIKE SLEEPINGGG.

A pile of homework , common test COMING.

-.-

Laugh my ass off.

Stop pissing me off.

一个人又怎样。

Janice - Never Let You Go

I SHALL BLOG 'CAUSE I AM HAPPY:D

ytd: Happy in band, happy in yoga!

Yoga is loved because I benefited so much from it.

Can't imagine how relaxed I am while in lesson.

It is so badly impt to me to cope in this crazy world.

At least that one hour there's no trouble or worries.

We did two new things. We laughed. LOL. We concentrated on fire.

LOL. Laughter is really contagious and they laugh as an exercise you can't help not joining their craziness.

Band is awesome. No matter how bad it was before, I can't help falling in love with it all over again.

No matter what, no matter, I still love playing in band. Love it so badly. And that few hours there's no trouble or worries too. Everyone became awesome playing together.

I realised I am slowly falling in love with suffs that can carry you away from all the craziness.

Stuffs like reading. Stuffs like yoga.

The world is awesome again at those moments.

:D
tdy: I bought chinese E dictionary! Finallllyy!:DI like!

I found the long -lost thumbdrive!Omg. Everything are found how lucky!:D

I learnt to take things easy. Be kind to myself.

(((:

yilian.

As of 13 FEB 2011:

Countdown

Commence of Band SYF 51DAYS.

Commence of 'O' level written papers 254DAYS.

Time to have serious thought as the time is running out.

Funny thing was, I calculated the days on my calender, I start with 'O' level,

okay, still have 254days. Not that bad.

Then I count for SYF, I start writing backwards, 1,2,3,4....51..

And just when I wanted to continue writing, I realised, NO MORE! Today is the 51days.

ShOCKED.

We can do it.

yilian(:

This week has been unproductive to me.
I have to admit I find too many excuses for myself and, pampered myself too much.
Yilian

We will see the rainbow after the rain.

Open your eyes and ears and take a good look at every thing.

Wait! What am I doing here? Now is the time to hit the books. Hmm.. Maybe I should set some ground rules for myself like no computer before studying or no dramas for a week or so. Or maybe not. I should just follow the schedule I set. I noticed improvement in myself, but I am still NOT studying. Everything else falls into its place nicely. But not studying. Sometimes I feel guilty. Oh wait, it's every time. I didn't bother studying for the test and got the not-so-good results and I feel sadness first but guilty followed in. Because I didn't put in effort who am I to have the right to be sad?It's not hard it's not easy too. I just have to put in effort in my work. And soon, very very soon, it will be over. Everything I'm going through now will end and I will be laughing my ass off soon, very. I just have to make it through this period. And I had a nice chat with my brother yesterday night, oh wait, I always do. It changed my mindset. Incredible huh.

I am optimistic. I am willing to.

"Excuse me, yilian"

Oh how nice(:

When you talk to me, call my name. Because then will I know you are talking to me and not Tom Dick or Harry. And Lili says she love me. :DDD

Bye(:

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

The moment I start to tell you everything,

it's when you can trust that they are my heartfelt words.

No one now. Only my brother.

Amazing thing.

When you speak to me, do you think that's what I really think?

Don't trust what I say because I realised there's two sides.

I am just not showing my true nature.

Maybe, I am. Sometimes it is really true.

I am different from how I look. But I am realising it now because I blog it out.

I want a change I guess.

I guess I am too good at pretending. But pretending for so long, there will always be a moment when you are too tired of it. But it is not my decision to pretend, my mind just want it to remain that way.

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I am trying to write out what I am really thinking. Taking the first step is a good start.

yilian

It is so hard. So hard to express.

By writing, by saying and other means I tried.

But both seems challenging to me.

I really love music. My way to express myself.

At my top list: music.

Urgh! I dont even know what I want to blog. How to write it down.

Frustrating.

I know I must do something, but I dont know how to do it.

Forget it. I shall not blog today. Do I understand myself? I think I do. But I think I don't.

bye.

EDIT: I am scary. The another side of me.

何維健 當我知道你們相愛

I LOVE THIS!XD

I find him attractive:Dreminds me of someone.

end of update(:

I'm back early(:
overall is gd even though didnt really have new year mood.
gd and productive.
day1
went to an unknown restaurant for nice dinner shortly after i arrived.
was in an awkward situation-unfamiliar faces w/o my family.
day2
with my brother and dad, we went to eat nearby. nice place to slack. stayed for three straight hrs
-finished math whole chapter and ate.
after that we went on to the pizzahut next door for dinner. overate.
spent the whole night for movie marathon at house. finished just two and half movie and
i am knocked out. my brother the last man standing. they have a mountain of movies(:
day3
home sweet home(:
did a lot of reading along the way. reading is nice(:

Although Daniel had told himself Trixie hadn't killed Jason, although he'd say this till he went hoarse,
there was a seed of doubt that had started to blossom, and it was choking his optimism.
jodi picoult

the long-awaited cny is coming to an end, life goes on.
yilian(:

GOODBYE:D

I am going to malaysia till next Monday for CNY!:D

SO! Because I didn't send sms to inform anybody, please do not sms/call me .

It will cost a bomb if you do that:(

Happy Chinese New Year! And have fun because I will!XD

Agenda when in malaysia

Collect mountain of angbaos containing money

Finish math homework chapter2

Read a book during the lulls of chinese new year

Goodbye!:D

yilian

Dear God, please give me the rainbow after the rain.

Because I will pull through the rain for the rainbow.

I will pull through the rain for the rainbow.

I will.

I will.

I will.

So, please stand by me and follow me through this rain.

Because at the end we will see the rainbow after the rain.