30Dec

Went to work. Before that went to eat nicenice muaiji. Memorable one, is when both me and my aunt were at the front selling, suddenly our chicken rice 'neighbour'

SHOUTED: XIAO MEI XIAO MEI, ZHAO HUO LE! which means HE WAS SHOUTING AT ME THERE'S A FIRE! What I thought was, what for call me? Like I know what to do. I was unusually calm. Then my aunt went to put it off. What happened was one cupboard caught on fire from the stove. It was burning. A small fire. Lucky it was discovered early I can say.

WHAT HAPPENED NEXT WAS EPIC. Our chicken rice 'neighbours' all started blabbling nonsense EG, MY CHILDREN ARE STILL YOUNG AH! I HAVENT HAVE WIFE AND HAVENT HAVE CHILDREN YET!

I WAS LAUGHING! They just keep saying how and why they don't want to die.They are indeed our area jokers.

31Dec

Went to work. Before that went to eat western food!:DIt's nice! HAHA my aunt brought me around for NICE FOOD!

I got bad stomachache I thought I ate wrong thing. Then I start recalling if I EVER DID. In the end was we womens problem. To think I actually thought I ate wrong things. It was HALFWAY of work. Troublesome! And I looked weird when I went nearby to buy. Especially when my shoe have no more friction and it was especially FRIGHTENING when I take the escalator that has no steps. I just have to grip the handle so tight if not I WILL SLIDE DOWN. Oh and I did a lot of spacing out today. I felt pressured at work everytime and my aunt said I did improve!

TODAY I LEARNT A LOT ABOUT MY CHILDHOOD AND ALSO ABIT ABOUT MY FUTURE. My childhood: what happened when I was a baby.

Okay, enoughh of today and yesterday. I SHALL REFLECT ON THE WHOLE YEAR before it is over. ...

YAY!:D We reached 700 business today!:D Which is a good one! Then we REALLY have to pack and go. REALLY no more noodles/rice left. And we went back EARLY!! :D

At least me starving and going so thirsty because of it is worth after all!

I can always relate my work to BAND! Seriously. There will always be ups and downs. Sometimes, business good, sometimes bad. When it is bad, I will feel like giving up. But you have to keep your faith. Like how last time I was chanting that people will come. In the end, business was good! At the end where we will calculate the sales for the day, it's when you know your efforts will not go down drain. It's the same for our syf. We go for syf and on that day, we will know it.

I was reading Liar Game yesterday till past midnight. A nice manga.

Band today. Mr Lester Lim came over!:DAMAZING GUY~~I learnt a lot from him!

Whatever he mentioned, hit the BULL'S EYE!

Lunched. And AGAIN. I suffer. It's really a bad habit. Really bad habit. A stupid 闷气。

Very stupid. Letting myself suffer, and the people around me.

Nothing to do with band. Nothing to do with what personal problems. If only YOU knew why.

Sometimes, I don't control my emotions well enough.

Anyway, sat on the bus with Wadariah and Cheehan!:D Chit chatted.

"Missmok: Happy new year to you too! Take good care of yourself, 2010 will be a busy year for you.

Shiyun: Next year, you will go crazy until you feel like pulling your hair. Really. Don't know why either. The stress."

Ha! Miss mok said that to me at the start of 2010. Not really very busy like she said.

Then Shiyun said that to me today, at the end of 2010. We'll see how!

It's amazing how it seems as though it's been not long before miss mok said that to me.

I can only say 2010 past in a flash.

Be not angry that you cannot make others as you wish them to be, since you cannot make yourself as you wish to be."

— Thomas á Kempis

trust

"An act very noble one. But, what many people do that they call 'trust' , is actually giving up on trying to understand others. And that has nothing to do with 'trust', but is rather apathy. Apathy is a far more devastating act than doubting others. The true evil is becoming apathetic about other people."

Doubt them. Question them, suspect them..and take a good, long look into their hearts. Humans are the kind of beings that can't put their pain into words, after all.

Work only.Krow. My leg is starting to ache from krowing.

Nothing special except for one customer who said 'jiayou'.

I was slow, very slow last time. But only not fast now. Then this young guy told me to take my time, and encouraging words. I was thinking, of course I can't. There are people waiting behind.

Then before he left, he said 'jiayou' shyly. My reaction, smile. :D So sweet to get encouragment!

Another moment, my aunt and I was cutting food in silent. She broke the silence by saying that I was very talkative when I am young, no one can stop me from talking. On the car, I will go on and on, at a supersonic speed and they will ignore me. My dad complained to her he can't stand me too.

But then now, no longer.

My reply, 'I finished my words'. And as she carry on, to prove that her saying is right, my reply was, smile, only.

I don't know why either. Sometimes I will even run out of things to say and ask my brother, what to say??????

As I grow up, my words lessen. Now talkative is no longer in my dictionary. And I am finding it back.

:)

I am yilian. Have a nice day.

Band in the morning. I can only say I am getting happier in our band practices.

Finding back the good old times. I can feel it. We are improving. We are playing more together now.

I went to school at 9AM IN THE MORNING to take instru from Mr Tan.

Too many instru to carry, I was stuck at the foyer for AT LEAST 45MINS.

FINALLY MICHELLE CAME! Junhui helped to carry too!:D

During that 45mins, I looked like an idiot sitting there. But glad that I used that time to do hmk!

Finished many exercises for chinese!XD

I LOVE TODAY'S SECTIONAL! It was productive and we improved a lot.

I'm loving trombone section more and more! We planned our section tee and we planned our section outing today! We are awesome right!XD

The three of us, even though only three, I can feel the bonding between us. Talking is easy and we understand each other more and more. Howjin is very on too! Section outing? Ok!

Sad that it was CANCELLED!:( I freaking FORGOT totally about my work.We were still discussing where to go after going Top Brass, we must take a lot of photos!

In the end was only my wistful thinking! I thought I am still a free little rabbit. BUT NEVERMIND! We still have next year!:D

Late for work. DId more hmk on the bus!Heh! Fall asleep while working== I am freaking tired. ALMOST fell asleep during band when mr tan correcting other sections. But when we started playing, I AM AWAKE AND EXCITED!

Fall asleep on bus back.

See how tired I was. Hmm..ytd night I was watching MVs one after another.

I understood today that if I still don't have enough sleep, I am going to suffer a lot, alot.

ANWYAY,

Qns and Ans BETWEEN EUPHO AND TROMBONE:

• Eupho's sectional OR Trombone's sectional : Eupho's sectional.
• Eupho's exseniors OR Trombone's exseniors: Eupho's!
• Euphonium OR Trombone: TROMBONE.
• Eupho's people OR Trombone's people: Hee! TROMBONE'S!

YAY!:D I like euphonium, but I love trombone. ANDAND, Trombone's sectional are getting better and better! Of course, exseniors brings me memories where I belong. I don't belong to any of trombone's. I loove trombone people! Seriously, trombone is more bonded and less problem. Partly because we have lesser people lah. But we are all very cooperative with each other! THATSSSSSS AAAAAALLL! My thoughts after changing for at least one month.

SLEEP SOON! And I am glad I joined band, really glad. I felt what Mr Tan mentioned, playing in a band brings away all your worries. Your most wonderful hours! I felt this, today.

Oh Baby, HONEY HONEY HONEY!

So sweeeet to love! But SAD that I love nobody now.

I only loveeeeeee my friends.

yilian: at this time next year, I will be at Malaysia.

aunt: wah you are already thinking of next year!

yilian: yea, i am going to stay there for the whole holiday

aunt: why?!?!you got so many months! at least 3months for you next year

yilian: yea thats why i want go back and stay with them. i think that we spent too little time together.

aunt: dont lah, go work. next year people will want hire you already, its a good time to work

yilian: what for? is money that impt?

aunt: no. but it's not about money leh, it's about work experience. its a good time to acquire experience, so nxt time you will know

yilian: *starts thinking*

My heart: What I really want is to baleh kampong and stay with my relatives. My brain: But work experience is impt, and I don't know when I will have the chance to work part time alr. And almost all will go try out working, I will lose out if I don't.

The losing out part is stupid I know, but that's what I thought. I will have disadvantage over the rest. I will see how as we move on.

MOVE ON BECAUSE LIFE GOES ON. Now lets just enjoy our last five days of 2010 and MOVE ON to a better year ahead! 2010 gives me good memories.

WORKKK!!!!:D

I love working, I LOVE school!

Working made me realise the importance of EDUCATION.

Business okok lah. Just that today we baleh kampong very early!!:D

Feels very weird! We just sold finish then we say can pack and go home.

Like really cause we sold finish already. Therefore went home earlyyyy!

My last working day: 2JAN 2011 Sunday

Gosh, 2011 is coming! Beware!

I'm gonna miss working there!!D:

The people there to be exact!!

They are SO FUN!!!!!

Hahas, today my 'neighbour' treat me chicken rice again!:D

He brought over to us, and brought a whole bowl of chilli! Then he JOKE again.

I said, WHY NO SOUP?!

He got a shock. LOL. And say, you want you come here take yourself lah, still want me take for you ah har.

We were laughing.

But in awhile, he BROUGHT OVER! LOL.

All laughing. Then he said which I REMEMBERED!

"Wah my wife also never so good, chan lor!'

He refering to treating his wife also wont so good. LOL.

Very ah beng whenever he talk. And LOUD!

He want me to be LOUD.

Damn, I will miss all this fun when I return school and have to stop working there .TT

And because of him, I thought that it will be sooooo good if I am a fun person too. Then I can have SO MUCH FUN WITH THEM!

:DTake care.

Christmas day=Working day

No christmas atmosphere leh. So I just imagine it myself while working.I looked around, if I didn't know, I won't realise today is christmas. Just like a normal day, just that people seems happier, people seems to be all walking at a relax pace.

Worked all the way. Nothing interesting except for today no business, I wiped our mirror, and my chicken rice 'neighbour'.

The first time I used newspaper and wipe the super duper totally blur mirror.

I was wiping with my heart and soul. And I got a praise from my aunt that I did well. Then because of that, I continued to wipe with all my might. Just like how a daughter want to perform well to be praised by her mother. Now it became a super duper somewhat clear mirror.

I wiped until I felt very uncomfortable and tired. Weird feeling I don't like.

But I'm proud of myself!(Y)

Then is this young guy from the stall beside ours. He came over to chitchat.

He is funny!:DHe is the one who made my working experience fun. LOL.

Likes to joke and always bully me.

He like to bully people but nobody can bully him.

Then he taught me how to 'work'. As in to really work properly. He is good at talking. Out of everything like bullying, laughing at people, singing out loud so many times, I can see that he has a matured and serious side. Sometimes all those are just to cover it.

He is the one who treat me food too!:D

To sum it up, an interesting guy!

Lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!

LOVE!

Christmas Presents from clique

Lovely!:D

Amelia: RABBIT Soft toy! Very cute!:DI love soft toys! But sad that it is expensive.

Amelia spent a lot on all the presents. Even though it is the thought that counts, I am touched by it.

ShiMin: Photoframe and SWEETS! I love the sweets!:D It came at the right time! And she is the only one giving food!:DPhotoframe is alright!:D

Sheryl: Cup and a NOTE! The cup is alright!:DBut it is the note that made her present special and touching!

Michelle: Ear Piece!:DI didn't expect it! Before I badly want an earpiece and had one from Amelia.

But I didnt expect Michelle to actually know I want it! I love it!

And I realised all the 4 presents I like and are special in it's own way. LEFT TINGWEI'S!:D

Exchanging presents are fun! My first time exchanging!

Ok, so now is past 12 while I was blogging halfway.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!:D

Amelia was the first one I wished! I was chatting with her and suddenly realised, 12 NOW!:D

Then phone called baobei JiaXin just to wish her!:DDD

My Christmas Eve:

Woke up later than expected, but still managed to do some hmk and practice instru.

And then I was very hungry, so asked Dad to buy for me. I didn't finish it as I was running late.

Went over to amk hub with Trombone and it was INCONVENIENT!D:

I can't squeeze in the shop==

And after I settled Amelia's present, she came!:D

I AM REALLY GRATEFUL!

All the while, she was with me even though she has no need to.

:D

I had a big headache over what to buy and worst is the rush of time.

Amelia knew almost everything, how I was cheapskate and bought very little at first.

But she knew nothing about hers'.

I was feeling lost and I didnt know what I was doing. I just buy when Ilike it. Then come regrets.

And money was running out too. But I have no time left to shop. So left for Bishan to find MrTan's one and to have lunch. Again, I saw smth I like and decide to add to the clique's present.

Had a cheap and quick lunch. And we have no time left!

Went over to orchard to find MrTan's one.

But even if we are late and we insist on going to find the BEARD, we are left disappointed.

RAN ON THE ORCHARD ROAD. I said countless 'sorry' to strangers and just make my way to the venue with Trombone.

I am damn late. We were damn late.

PERFORMED.

Went back to huayi while I have time to get the presents ready.

Exchanged at huayi!:DIT'S SO FUN!

I am glad they like my presents. I didn't expect it. I was really glad.

To sum my journey up, Amelia and me have good stamina!

We ran and ran with our instruments even though we felt like dying.

The feeling of having a purpose and the feeling of being glad is really nice.

We ran our way because we want to reach there as soon as we can. At least I want to. The feeling was so strong.

And when they liked my presents, my heart feel touched. Until can cry those. LOL.

A bit exaggeration from me.

Taxi back to home. Chat with Jinghui and Michelle!:D

Now that I wrote everything out, I actually felt that it was not a bad christmas eve.

I was late. I looked at MrTan, I felt ashamed because of it.

And then I was not feeling very happy with myself.And I felt awkward with people at times.

But now that I see, I actually learnt from it.

A very reflective christmas eve(:

Yolanda Adams- Never give up (lyrics)

I'm addicted to this song.

I am going crazy because I am so hungry NOW!D:

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!:D

EDIT: I finished half of chinese bk alr. Jiayous! Still got time for the other half!

I shouldn't be here.

I should be getting ready for bed.

I have been reaching home at near 11 recently because of work.

And, I HAVE TO SLEEP EARLY.

So that I can wake up early tomorrow.

But, since I have to wait for my hair to dry and have my dinner, it will do no harm to be

here! TOMORROW REST DAY FOR ME. No work.

Which is like the only day , due to Huayi performance!:D

So, I have to complete those overdue stuffs all in tomorrow.

And I cannot oversleep till noon if not all my plans will be down the drain.

If that happens, I will not expect myself to be able to finish all the homework by the time school reopen.

So I will pray that I will wake up in time. *praying*

Oh and Mr Tan really have good ears! He called while I was sleeping and he knew it from my voice. Even though I have already tried to sound awake.

Business today is the same as yesterday.

I find that my 'neighbour', the chicken rice one, they a bit proud due to their good business.

Their business is really very good. And I was a bit irritated by them.

But, they still nice because they treat me chicken rice!:D

2010 is ending soon. I shoudn't be sad since life goes on. Life doesn't revolve around 2010.

Goodbye!:D

EDIT: Oh and I saw mayflower the detention lady while working!:DI realised that quite many mayflower ppl live near my workplace! And MY DAD CAME TO VISIT ME TOO!:D

It is better to believe
than to disbelieve;
in so doing you bring everything
to the realm of possibility.

~ Albert Einstein ~

zhean says:
*yea i know right
*sigh
*okok
*so yea
*i think it sounded not as bad
*just need to work on stuff like intonation and the running notes stuff
*oh and all the exposed parts
YiLian says trust me says:
*exposed parts?
zhean says:
*like your part and the trumpets
*trumpets got some melody
*i dunno wad song
*but i think you shd noe wad i talking
zhean says:
*hmm
*lol
*you want noe why i say it's ok?
YiLian says trust me says:
*why?
zhean says:
*cuz you guys got a damm loud and stable bass
*you know the tuba is like boom boom boom all the way?
*even mr tan cannot control them!
YiLian says trust me says:
*hahas! amelia will be damn happy!
zhean says:
*lol
YiLian says trust me says:
*but to them they dont think they are loud and stable
zhean says:
*but make sure they still keep tempo la
*they are
YiLian says trust me says:
*we are softer than huayi
zhean says:
*then cover all the mid range instrus
*with it...
*lol

*i dunno about huayi but i think tmf band is still alright

Amelia, be glad!!:DI think you will think still not good enough.

Anyway, I am really happy during band. It's been long since I am really happy.

We had phototaking and trombone section went first!:D

And back to full band. I am happy because I am slowly, getting the feeling back.

The feeling I got when I first stepped inside band room and listened to the band play.

My heart beat faster. I am once again touched by the music, even though it was very slight.

A LOT OF EX SENIORS CAME BACK!:D I am happy!:D

Somehow, I feel proud. I want to feel proud. To show them, 'hey this is our band now. we are improving. we are good. Infront of them. And I am. I am not sure if it is self delusion by looking at only the good points in us but I am.

Anyway, happy jiu hao.

I am only sad when I am damn late for work. For near one hour. Damn damn!

On the way there, I put on my earpiece and blasted the music. My mind was loud.

I starts to reflect on everthing that happened during band. I thought of what Mr Tan said to me. I thought of JiaHeng.

Because I am late, IN THE END NO FREE FOOD!:(

But business is not bad!:D

I will sum everything off with I must sleep soon!If not tomorrow will have a hard time.

To do list:

• Pay fees for music school
• Buy Christmas presents.
• Finish up homework.
• Practice instruments. Practice practice and still practice.

Practice properly makes perfect.