Once in awhile, it's okay to break some rules

I think I've been living by this belief for quite some time now. Late for school, handing in work late, sleeping in class etc etc. Sometimes, I just don't care anymore. What's the worst that could have happened anyway?
I don't care okay. Who came up with all these rules anyway? Life is so ... STUCK with all these bullshits.

I'll be really honest here. I really hate going to school now. It just feel so....meaningless and pointless to me. I think everything boils down to the people in the school. Of course, if we all have our best buddies in school, we'll be so excited for school. But what if all we have are strangers?

I'll always tell myself:
It's okay. Everything will be okay.

Until this moment, I still believe that everything will be okay one okay? I do believe that everything will be okay. There's just so many things going on in my life now, I'll happily give school a miss if it's possible.
But no. School is school. We still have to go to school no matter what. Don't believe all those bullshits people say, what it is okay not to go school or whatever. It is not okay. Not in this society. Not in Singapore.

THEREFORE, CONTINUE GOING TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY.

And since you have to do it anyway, why not do it with a smile?

HENCE, CONTINUE GOING TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY WITH A POSITIVE ATTITUDE.

Byebye! I'm really really tired now. So this become an emo post. Tomorrow will be a fine new day YEAH.

Primary School and JiaXin

School, a place where we spend more than 10 years of our life in. It is just like our second home. A few years back, I may not have any strong feelings for this word. But not now.

My schooling experience can be traced all the way back to when I'm just seven years old. DaQiao primary school. It was the first day of school. I can still remember how the school was flooded with tall and huge people. Until now, I'm still so glad that my mum was with me on my first day of school. She stayed by my side all the while.

Then, I met the friend who changed my life. I met JiaXin. I can still remember how and where we met. My mum was bringing me to my class and she introduced me to the person who was sitting beside me. Yes that's right. She is Tio Jia Xin. Can you imagine? From the first day of school, we became friends. And until now, 11 years later, she still remains my best friend. This friendship is definitely one that I will treasure for many years to come.

We became best friends quickly. And since then, I don't remember having any other close friends in school. To me, she's all I need. However, things didn't go as well as I thought. At 9, I didn't perform as well academically and I got transferred out of the class. That's when I met other primary school friends of mine, kim yen and chia yi er. The three of us became best friends. I remember spending alot of time with them playing and having fun. However, things didn't go the way I thought again. But this time round, I performed well academically. It's the first time I actually got first in the whole class. Really awesome feeling. And so, I got transferred out of that class, back to JiaXin's class. By then, JiaXin and I already became complete strangers.

However, eventually, JiaXin reached out to me. She made a surprise call during the holiday when we were 11 and we became best friends quickly again.

I missed those times. We were young and carefree. Even though I was shy and quiet in school, I don't remember hating school. In fact, whenever I'm with JiaXin, I was happy. Everyone in school was nice too.

My primary school life isn't all that special or worth mentioning, but I definitely enjoyed myself. And I think that's all that matters. =)

What is life after all? Is life all about taking risks? Or is life all about staying safe to protect the ones we love? Why do we go to school? Why do we struggle to survive school? Everything we do must have a purpose right?

Unsettled heart. So disgusted. What's wrong with me? Weird. Seriously weird.

update

Last week's pretty hectic. Even though it was suppose to be my march holiday. My holiday was like only two days! Saturday had piano theory exam and Sunday had judo competition. Monday to Wednesday was school. Anyway, not going to complain anymore.

Everything's about your mindset. I'm going to adopt a positive mindset from now onwards. At least I'll try to.
These few days I experienced the significant difference the moment I consciously change my mindset.
I became happier and people around me also became happier.

If you haven't know, I did badly for my block test. Well, I only have myself to blame. It's the fact that I didn't work hard enough. And got the grades I deserve. They will serve as a wake up call. Time to get serious. And buck up. And just think positively.

These days I've been getting more comfortable with my classmates already. It's really all about mindset. I think I'm really awkward with people. And I kind of fear people. Like I will deliberately avoid people in general. But I'm working on it now :) Just be myself right? OK. I'll do just that!

Anyway, my plan now is to focus on my studies and catch up on my work. Plan to participate in another judo competition too. So I'm going to intensify my training to three times a week now. Hopefully I'll have greater and faster improvements.

BYE PEOPLE.

Let's catch up with each other soon :D I'm meeting Tingwei tomorrow already! Excited already woohoo!~

Yo, my bro's in NS. I miss him so much. Didn't know it's so good to have a bro until now. :(

Life haven't been good to me recently :/ Positive thinking comes in handy now.

my besties

Hi Lovelies,

suddenly, I'm blogging again. Reason: I love my sweet and lovely and pretty friends.
Let the photo do the talking. THEY ARE ALL MY BESTIES. LOVE THEM SO MUCH.

They are not in any specific order. I love everyone equally!

Sheryl Ho Jia Min 

Ng Ting Wei 

Michelle Ong

Pang Shi Min

June Lim Zu Er

Tio Jia Xin

Sasha Cheong Fang Qi

Chong Shi En

Amelia Choo Shu Xian



AND LU LI LI!!!!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! :( T_T I regret how I didn't cherish you when we are together in secondary school. That time I was too occupied by other stuffs that I think I neglected you alittle :( And I can't believe we didn't take a photo at all!! T_T Miss you soooo much. Hope you are doing well and happy now! All the best to you!!

She taught me the importance of cherishing the moment. Cherishing all the friends who stayed by my side and love me no matter what.

I'm sorry if I haven't been a good friend.
I will try to become a better friend to all of you lovelies.
Because it is you who make my life wonderful and awesome.

LOVES.

new 2013

Finally got the feel to blog. So I on my laptop immediately hehe.

2013 will be a year of change. Because so many things are different now.

I will get a new class, my Dad won't be able to send me to school everyday anymore and my brother will be entering NS in February.

Maybe it'll be a lonely year, fighting a lonely battle.

Tomorrow will be my first day of J2 life. I'm feeling both excited and nervous. After finding out that my J1 class will be split into two and coincidentally I will split with both ShiEn and June, I don't know what to expect anymore. Maybe no more anticipation for the new school year.

The news came like a lightning bolt. So sudden and unexpected. It took me awhile for the reality to sink in as well.But I'm now okay with it now. And pretty positive.

So wish me luck!

I'll sum up my2012  end of year holiday in:

• Band
• Judo
• Running man
• Jiaxin
• Malaysia trip
• Pimples 

Had a pretty enjoyable holiday!! Because I totally let loose and slacked all the way wahahaha.
DAMN SHUANG AH.

A little confession from me: I totally neglected my whole stack of holiday homework and studying.

Well, I'm already prepared for the consequences. It will probably be a tough year ahead.
(I'm still 50% regret 50% didn't regret neglecting them though hehe)

Because I had an AWESOME HOLIDAY.

But now have to look forward to 2013 already.
My resolutions for the year (until 'A' level finish though):

• Sleep early every night

To make sure I am not a tired and angry man the following day in school.

• Focus on studies and piano theory

'A' level 'A' level 'A' level 'A' level 'A' level 'A' level 'A' level 'A' level 'A' level

• Be more independent

Because I have no more transport to school and because my brother won't be always by my side too.


I'm done. Hehe. Of course, for the whole year MUST STAY HEALTHY AND SAFE.
All my family members, Jiaxin, Amelia, ShiMin, Michelle, Tingwei, ShiEn, June and Sasha.

EVERYBODY STAY SAFE AND HEALTHY.

Update

Update update!! :D

Most recent news: I got back my promo results. I believe everyone knows about it already though. HAHA. That day was really an important day. Many many J2 seniors msged me to ask me about my results too. It was...weird. Like at first when a few asked me I was happy to tell them because I feel like I'm CARED. HEHE. But soon when more come asking me I start to feel weird. HAHA. Like WA so many cared! (or issit just curious...) hah!

So holiday today. We went out to celebrate Amelia and Shimin's belated birthday. SO SORRY! :( I feel like it's damn fail. In the end it really feel like an ordinary day :( Which I dread the most. But still, *shout out to Amelia and Shimin* , you know we love you right!!! Even though I think we didn't manage to show our love, I'm telling you that that's how we feel!! INSERT HEARTSHAPE.

And I'm really really really a coward. *sincere* I'm afraid to meet people (except for some of course) and I'm missing all the social gatherings and such. As of now, I just don't like to attend such events. Me a shyyy girl!
SO, EVEN THOUGH TODAY HAS BUFFET OR SHOPPING INVITATIONS, I REJECTED ALL. :(

But don't worry people, I'm working on my shyness already. Haha! Soon, very very soon, I will go out and PARTY!

I'm going out with my mum to watch movie now though. Heheh. I'm PERFECTLY fine with my mum :D

OK got to go and get ready now! BYEBYE.

PS Still have school until 23rd November! Jiaxin's school already holiday! :(
PSS To Shimin: We should talk more and hang out together more often!! :D

Promoted

Hey people, Yilian's back! :D

Today I got back all my results.

For my promos,

General Paper C

Mathematics A

Biology C

Chemistry D

Economics E

Chinese B

Overall,

General Paper C

Mathematics A

Biology C

Chemistry C

Economics E

Chinese B

It's been long since I got decent grades. I'm really grateful. I believe it is the blessing of God. I feel happy. And it is the kind that comes from within my heart. Peacefulness I guess.

I'm lucky that I woke up in time too.

However, I do have classmates who are not as lucky. My heart goes out to them. I really hope that they will not give up. Continue fighting! Continue having faith!

Just now, my civics tutor was really inspiring. After the release of results, a bunch of us went to look for him to talk. And he told us to work really hard starting from next year for the As. So I told him that I will work hard and that I will start working hard from NOW on.

My civics tutor actually turned to me and looked me in the eyes.
Then, he tells me that he believe in me. I was both surprised and touched.

I will work hard and do well! Thank you God. Thank you everyone who gave me well wishes!

My 30 days challenge

Judo

3/11/2012-2/12/2012

mutual respect

I respect myself for who I am and I love myself for who I am. If I don't respect myself, how do I expect the others to respect me?

Good news number 1: CHINESE 'A' LEVEL IS OVER!
Good news number 2: PW WR IS OVER!

Time to open champagne and PARTY! Wooosh! :D

When I grow up...

When I grow up, I want to be someone who is useful to the society. I want to graduate and find a stable job fast so that I can support my family. Able to provide for them, able to raise their standard of living.
Maybe I'll end up in some office working 9 to 5. OK hopefully not. What I want is to do something that I love and that it can also provide me with a stable income.

After I achieved what I want, I want to travel around the world.

Pastamania

HI PEOPLE! I have two good news! :D First, my promotional exams are over!! Second, my braces are off already!!! Be happy for me alright!! :D Today met up with this woman named ChongShiEn for lunch at pastamania! :D This woman don't like me to take her photos but she likes to spam other people's photo! ><

Ajisen

Last Sunday finally met up with my 10years long bestfriend Jiaxin. We dined at Ajisen at amk hub before sitting down somewhere else for more catching up! Haven't seen her for at least 4 months already. I remember before we went our separate ways, we are always together. The memories we have together goes all the way back to when we are 7. I'm really glad to have her as my best friend. Because good friends are hard to come by. Even though we are now studying in different schools, I believe our friendship will last forever and ever. And when we have time, we can ask each other out to catch up again and keep our friendship going! :D Quoted from jiaxin: Live our lives as a teenager to the fullest now. 不要让青春留白。