HELLO blogger my friend who listn to me without judging. Listening to me blabber on everyday.

I have to tell you I had a bad day. A day I consider wasted because I was angry. But then I had a nap, a long one, which helped a lot. I consider myself healed from the day 's craziness. It was not a good sleep that revitalize me, just one that made me less tired.

How much tear do you want me to shed for you ah band.

I am giving my best, even if I am not, I am willing to give my best. So why don't you?

My brother's currently in Thailand, my mother just went to Malaysia. Oh how lonely. I will be alone with Daddy until Sunday. Miss them so, my confidant. But lucky my dad is one of them. We are close!:D

There is a question that keeps on ringing in my head I want to know the answer.

Papa says I should speak up for myself. It made me feel helpless.

They says that a leader should not cry infront of his/her followers. The reason is simple.

They will know that you are weak and that they can bully you.

But I shall say why not? Nobody is right or wrong. You cry because you are sad you are angry.

But that doesn't mean I will allow anyone to bully me.

Like I said, I had a bad day. I kept on reflecting. It was on things that I have no answer to.

Papa says I should concentrate on my studies because all these are small things. In the working world, things are worst. Your enemies will want your money, your position, your status or even your life. There will be no one to shield you or to take you in care. You ARE on your own.

I shed tears of anger. How disappointing you are.

Everything I shall take in my stride.

Life is short and I shall live in my own way.

I will push myself further and get out of my comfort zone for everything I do.

It is all up to you now. Because you must know time is running out. Everything will come to an end and it is up to you if the end will be beautiful or, ugly.

It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness.

Goodluck.

yilian:D

You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me

I love this.

Hey I SHALL blog today:S

Tired to the max but still. Had fun.

Huayi first followed by Christchurch. We had band for the whole day.

8 sharp meet mr tan at coffeeshop, huayi for the morning, christchurch for the afternoon.

back:D enlightened. Hmm..not really.

Yesterday didnt had a good sleep, it was too cold!:x

As for Monday, I had some dream I remember. It seems I was in love with this guy, but it was a sad love story. I woken up in shock.

Mr toru came, omg we sounded so different and I had fun playing. We played for the whole day too.

Nice experience:D Oh and I missed my bus-stop. I was reading a book and when I looked up, my bus-stop has passed. So might as well wrong all the way, went ahead to top up my ezlink card.

A fall into a ditch makes you wiser.

Hello eventful day:D Out of the house for majority of the day:D

Violin lesson then lunch then buy things then back home. Out again for the library, lunch again(-.-) then buy things then homed. I borrowed library books!:DAnd went to look at violin omg I'm so tempted to buy!D: But have to consider a lot. I really want to buy a new and better violin. My dad's willing, but I don't want to act without thinking. Urgh. When I'm home, I fall asleep.

Slept for very long..Woken up by a phone call.

Piano for awhile, dinner(late!) and here infront of computer!:x

Walking in the shadow of fear
drowning endlessly by a single tear
running along side of self-discovery
fearing the loss of self- recovery
parts of mind going unknown
dangerous sides going unshown
one day you will eventually die
so today make everything right

Shelby Denham

Today, make everything right.

goodnight:D

Let our advance worrying become advance thinking and planning.

Winston Churchill.

Experience is not what happens to a man, but what a man does with what happens to him.

Aldous Huxley.

Arrow are shot by dragging the bow back similarly, if life is dragging you back with problems, be patient. It's getting ready to shoot you to new heights.

Anon.

realisation

Hey it's late but I'm not sleeping yet. Just thought of blogging down my thoughts. A short post.

I love music. I love reading. I love to watch dramas. And I think I know why now. I love to bring out the emotions in the music, I love to follow the emotions of the writer and lastly I love to be carried away by the storyline of the show. All of them got me out of the reality. And I realise, I love to fantasize. Get carried away by my own thoughts. And I dream when I'm awake and when I'm sleeping. I once told my brother how much I love watching dramas, and he said maybe I can be a director and produce my own show in the future. But that's not what I want. My new love, reading, made me realise the root of my loves. To create. My own. To demonstrate my feelings and character. I brought out the character in my piano playing but in terms of violin and trombone, I need to work harder. I'm really happy. I realised that there are so many ways I can express myself. I used to be a crybaby. Because that's the only way I know to express myself. But things has changed. I have changed. So now, I must improve my english and read everything so that one day, I can write a well and polished story. And then, continue practicing hard!

This is me now. Oh yes, I'm happy!:D

PS I just finish reading A leap of love, it's nice. And my brother just went to Thailand for exchange for one whole week, I guess I can't be too dependant on him:(

breathe in the hope

It's rare I'm awake when the sun just rise in the morning of a saturday.

It feels good to breathe in the air of saturday morning once in awhile.

I took a walk around the school with lili.

As you look into his face can you tell him your happy to have lived the life you did to feel the pain you felt or are you ashamed of your life your wrong doings as you continue to stare in his eye he says i cant judge you only u can judge your self.

-Joey Martinez

Off to books. Goodbye:D

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Hello I had an early night yesterday I slept for 12hours, I think(:

I went for my dental straight after school the dentist praised that my school tie looks nice. LOL.

Braces changed to pink I'm feeling sweet that moment!:D

Today is the last day of school going for march holiday break, woots!:D

And I got two new tee, class tee:D, and sl tee.

My friends are right I think I may explode. But I'm lucky I have someone to talk to.

Nowadays I'm getting frustrated easily. One of the good I think I'm gaining is how to handle stress.

I'm still not a pro at it but I think I'm much better than before!(:

How much a human being will change after a period of time because of the situation around.

There are more and more times I'm controlling the urge to curse and swear.

Amazing uh. I bet you didn't know.

What I can only say is, I'm so different as compared to before.

I think I really need to find some time to chill out.

Anyway, stay happy!:D

Happy holiday! omg holiday is really coming!

yilian:D

fight 30, band

Short post because I need to rush out something impt I must succeed.

Fun day(: I must not let my determination waver! It's do or die. I have no choice. Yilian, please remember and wake up now.

give me strength, give me luck.

goodbye(:

oh dear

HELLO!

Lucky I still can remember yesterday's event :x

I heard a touching real life story I was very affected by it I was sad for one hour straight.

It made me realise how minor my worries are. How fortunate I am. That I am fortunate yet I do not cherish it. Made me so saadddd! Yoga was fun omg. We walked down the studio shaking our butt :x Ok the rest I forgot.

Today! omg my whole brain is occupied by it and I can't stop thinking about it ever since 5. 15.

Sad to say I want to talk to people :x Urgh. Hurry tomorrow hurry come.

Oh yea, I remember I took the wrong bus yesterday. Twice straight I took the wrong bus! I looked at the bus, and I thought I can take it. Wah really very . Two times somemore. And I thought it's really destined I must walk.

Today. Stayed back afterschool till late and leave sch with junyang and bee.

Oh man I'm really very distracted now. What to do. Someone, talk to me-.-

Oh yea I have unknown number missed call me I can't call back-.-

And I keep having weird thoughts today :x

goodbye!

don't go

Hello(: Update for the day.

I had a long sleep last night(more than 12hours) after yesterday's events.

Went for exchange, went for piano exam(i'm satisfied), back to exchange, went to mac for after-action review with the majors for exchange, gave junhui a ride home.(when will I have my own car), homed.

My sleep, had weird and a lot of dreams. Piano lesson today, teacher praised me for improving a lot( over the moon), I finished reading the new storybook and now working on new vocab words. My coughing is back to haunt me I don't know why and my parents are insisting I eat medicine. I heard that we are getting our class tee tomorrow oh yeah.

Yesterday's events really leave me exhausted and thinking.

I discussed with my dad about what I thought and he shared his wisdoms. I must remember yesterday.

How much I realised books are the one I have. It will bring me to the future, a bright one.

Music is a hobby. Knowledge must be my priority now. How much I must remind myself.

I love my friends. End of update(:

yilian:D

Hello!:D

I had a long day. Being pissed off I guess is the best way to drain energy.

School today is tiring.

Start off with my dad turning the wrong direction and went off to my bro's school first which I end up running late for school.

I skipped recess because we have to do some investigation in class.

I think the problem is not anyone's fault. And if we were to be punished, whole class should be together. Oh and did I mention I was one of the suspect? Well because it originated from our chinese class. Recess is gone. Lunch is gone too because I thought I'm going to do this or do that which I end up not doing. Band, preparation for exchange. Stayed back late.

I'm very touched my friend!:D Nothing can express my gratitude for you and you!

And we went home late:(

Oh and I was scolded by some strangers!!._.

I off the wrong switch and the light went off in the hall. Damn, I just want to help.=_=

Nvm, I shall forget about it.

I troubled too many ppl today:(

Anyway, music theory and band exchange tomorrow morning, I'm exhausted already but I have to hold on. I hope everything went smoothly.

yilian:D

Penguins are loved!:D

Bio lessons are the BEST!:DDD

searching

Hello!(:

Today had chem SPA2, easy but not that easy. Whatever. It's over(:

It drained all my energy..

I stayed back after school for band stuff, I find Junhui funny! LOL.

Had a lot of fun(:

Coming soon: Band exchange. Grade 5 theory.

Trying to cope yea. I MUST pay more attention on my studies.

Now I find that my stuff's messy. All the papers flying around in my room.

I must find time to clean up the mess and get moving.

Take care(:

237;34

Exhausted= Very tired.

I got back all my marks for commontest, not very promising.

Yesterday had soundcheck at SCH. Fond memories came rushing back(:

Having SPA2 tomorrow, goodluck!

yilian:D

EDIT: Our bus passed the Singapore Flyer while going back mayflower yesterday night,

omg awesome it's so beautiful.

I want go with trombone section! If it's not ex or if someone spnsor.

Nice!