Hello :D
These are the 'major' events of my life for the past few weeks. HAHAHA
I'm not always studying one okay! :D
6/4
Dined at Pariss with My mum and Bro. And Mum's company. Time for gooood food! It's an expensive place! Food's good. :D
8/4
Ice skating at kallang leisure park with Michelle and Audrey! Ice Skating was funnnnn! I'm a noob at it! So all the while I held onto Michelle and Audrey for my life! No falling! Happy birthday to Michelle too! :D Hopes that she enjoyed the day and loves my present for her.
14/4
Watched Titanic. I love it! It's very touching! No I didn't cry. But I almost cried! <3
18/4
Dinner date at Burger King with Amelia! We just talked like normal and spam photos HAHA
I always like talking to Amelia. She's very enlightening. It feels like after a long day at work, you seek a rest. She provides warmth and comfort.
Life's been..boring? Every week, every day, you go to school, you do some stuffs, and the same routine repeats again and again. And then yesterday night, I finally stops and think.
What is it that I truly want? Why am I going through all these stuffs? My ultimate goal?
No motivation. No fun. No drive to win. Nowhere to go.
But if I think logically, I should be satisfied with my life. I have school to go. Place to live. Lots of food to eat. Supporting friends and family.
Someone to love.
What should I be not happy about?
Because I don't have dreams. And a strong mindset.
I've changed. In a good way and in a bad way. I became more truthful to my own feelings. But I became less sentimental. I am not as optimistic as before.
I've learnt something though.
No matter what, follow your passion. I'm no longer in band. I thought it will be better. I thought I will be happier. I thought I can now devote more time to my studies. But I'm wrong.
I didn't join band. I lost something to look forward to. Therefore even though I go home early, I don't feel happy. It's this empty feeling inside me. You think you will get better results? Nah. I couldn't find the mood to study.
Interact club's great, but I dont feel like I belong there.
Sometimes I really wonder if I've made the right decisions.
Ok bye people :D Stay cheerful! Stay crazy!
PS My neck's hurting like shit now.
