I'm going to be fast.

Happy birthday my darling jiaxin. We went out today to sing k and I really really enjoyed myself.
I hope she does too if not only me enjoying instead of the birthday girl. Jiaxin's brother's girlfriend is nice. I'm really happy today. Anyway, while singing, I realised something.

It's about studies anyway. It's always on my mind to slack, play and just enjoy myself. And I'm so looking forward to the period of time after o level. That I stop concentrating on the present and to work hard now. But I realised, whenever I'm out playing(this period before o start), I'm not truly enjoying. I'm either thinking about studies or thinking that I must play hard after o..

But I realised, why not just work hard now. And shove all the fun away(FIRST). It's then that if I did it, I will be able to do very well for o level and then I will be able to finally play with all my heart, soul whatever with relief. And that's really important to me.

Okay. So I'm not sure if you understand what I mean. But the main point is, I'll work hard now(no pleasure), and play hard after it(full of pleasure).
After all, it's the sweetness after the sourness that's the best.

All this while, I'm too stubborn. Insisting on my own(wrong) way and always thinking of play play play.

I will give in.

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I really like taking photos. It captures all memories your brain can't really remember. The looks of it. Happy or sad.
So just now I was browsing through my photos and I saw a set of photos taken few years back. And I realised how much I miss her. My friend. My cousin. My sister. My bestbud. How we used to play together. But now that we have changed, I doubt we will be back to how we used to be.
People change. Friendships change.

I really hate it. Me giving you part of my heart and getting this in return. Now it seems hard to heal. We won't be who we used to be.

Okayyyy. I took ten minutes to finish this. Too long. Urgh. Time to go. Bye!